Ramblings Of A Rambler

Theme: Weirdo's Watching Britans Got Talent reassure's me that there's even more weirder people out there than me. Some of these weirdo's have a partner, so at least I won't be forever alone, haha. There's a freak out there for everyone. No matter how much somebody paid me, I wouldn't go on that show. Mainly because no matter what, it will go down in history especially with thing's such as youtube. I just couldn't publicly embarrass myself.

Theme: I've had some whisky, and now I feel better! I am feeling a lot better. Sometime's all it take's is a day off from thing's such as work/college to make yourself feel better. I had a pretty decent day at college today with Steve. Spent the day just quoting Liam Sullivan (Kelly) video's. Due to a specific video I will now I will now be greeted as "The lesbian is here, oh boy!" which is just brilliant. Anyway, it's two week's easter holiday now and I'm packed full of coursework. Bastards.

Theme: Loser This is going to sound so, so sound. But as everyone knows I am a fan of Christopher Mccandless I found a list of some of the book's that he read. So what have I done? I have gone and brought them so I can say I have read the same books as Chris. I have complete and utter stalker potential in me. I have pretty much nearly ran out of real Chris photo's to post so I am going to have to revert back to using film photo's, which is fine with me.

"A fool learns from his own mistakes, A wise man learns from the mistakes of others" -Anon ♥

Theme: Death Comes To Us All I am so incredibly ill. A week later and many, many medications later I am actually somehow, getting worse. I couldn't even get to college today. I so wanted to go so then I could of hung round Abbey Park during our break. She's been texting me throughout the day though and it turns out I haven't really missed anything. So right now all I am doing is sitting in my pj's and watching 'Into The Wild' for the like 20th time and I have managed to devour a whole packet of bourbons, plus I'm still doing a little bit of gambling. I now have £100 safely tucked away. Anyway, after all that you would think I would feel at least a little bit better. But I just don't. I would have gone to college if it wasn't for the cough. It's the cough that's making me feel so ill because it keeps making me feel like I'm going to be sick. I hate the morning when I have a sore throat. They are always the worst. I'd rather not slee...

Theme: Painful Tongue My tongue is incredibly cut up from my rubbing my tongue across my teeth. I went to the chemist to see if there is anything that I could have. They decided to suggest the most expensive medication possible for that sort of thing and even with it, it wouldn't stop me from chewing my tongue up and picking at my lips. Every now and again my lips and tongue will go numb and I need to figure out something to do, as the pain, even when I do simple thing's such as drinking, it hurt's.

Theme: Gambling I have never gambled in my whole life but my brother shown me this thing online. I wouldn't say it's really fun it has it's boring time's. I don't think I will get addicted to it, I think I'll just become pissed of and stop playing. I got my money all the way up to £10 but then hit a bad streak. My brother is on bloody £70!

Theme: Still Ill I'm still ill and it's really sunny outside. I just spent the day being boring and catching up on programme's I've missed. There's not much to blog about really. I feel riddled with diseases, yet all I have is a cold.

Theme: Desperate Housewives Just watched 'Desperate Housewives'. I would have been in flood's of tears if my brother hadn't been present. Mike was shot by a loan shark. There's so many shocker's this season it's brilliant. It's just so sad. It's not uncommon for every episode to make me cry. Shame it's the last season. My favourite episode that has really got me though, was the Eddie episode. Basically a kid get's treated like shit his whole life and one day he snap's back. Just like all those school shooting's you see. There's only so much one can take before you snap.

Theme: The Walking Dead Watched the final of 'The Walking Dead'. I have mixed feeling's about it I guess. It ended pretty well and I am looking forward to the next season. However, it would have been such a better episode if Andrea had died. I'm just hoping that the next season is a little less person based and more walker based. I have nothing to spoil for Steve anymore :( I think I might take up watching Grimm...

Theme: It's Sunny & I'm Ill, What's New? I'm so ill, but on the bright side I've just discovered the wonder's of "day nurse". I'm a huge fan of night nurse as it is, but now they do medication for in the day. Anom nom nom. I have a feeling I will be better for tomorrow. I have bloody placement tomorrow and I just cannot be bothered with it. All of my patience for the world has just gone to 0%. I just woke up one day and it was gone. If anyone find's my patience, let me know, or even if you find a spare. This is why I can't work with people on a learn term basis. I'd just end up snapping.

Theme: To Snitch Or Not To Snitch? Basically, I have been doing all the housework myself as I have said in previous blog's. It's been really nakkering. Especially when he's just sitting there and watching me doing it, or just generally getting in the way. The deal was that he was going to cook for me once a week. He hasn't. I've been living off take aways and in all honesty, I'm sick of them and they have very quickly became disgusting. I want to snitch, however, he brought my medication yesterday. He took me out for a meal, not with his own money mind. But still, the only thing he has done was wash his own pots, once, and put the washing in the washing machine, which took a lot of nagging. I could have done with the help which I didn't recieve so I guess a snitching is in order.

Theme: Herbs I have now had a first hand experience with what herbs can actually do for you. I am as ill as shit and I didn't sleep too well last night, but for some random reason I decided to get my bag of Lavender out of my draws and just smell it in an attempt to "soothe" me. I think it was because every time I breathed through my nose, all that was there, was just snot, so I wanted to breathe in something a little more pleasant. Anyway, I wasn't even sure what Lavender does for you until the next day. But I actually fell asleep. I woke up like every now and again for a drink but when I put my lavender bag away, I couldn't sleep. So I got it out again, and I was knocked out again! I did a little research the next day and it is a herb that can help with insomnia. I really think this is some sort of a huge sign that I really should start looking into herbs a lot more and actually doing something with them.

""Society, man! You know, society! Cause, you know what I don't understand? I don't understand why people, why every fucking person is so bad to each other so fucking often. It doesn't make sense to me. Judgment. Control. All that, the whole spectrum." - Into The Wild ♥

Theme: Call A Priest! I'm Ill! I am so ill, my throat is literally falling apart. I thought it was just a psychological things as my teacher was talking about infections, flu and general disease's. I learnt a lot about crabs today. Y'know, the public lice. Anyway, as she was talking about flu's and such I think I've just caught it, but mentally caught it. If I make any sense what so ever. I am just still so annoyed about group that I'm just this one big ball of annoyance. Now, I am just trolling facebook and starting an argument wherever I can.

(Chris Mccandless License Plate)

Theme: Mental Illness Those who know me, know that I do have depression and I have the problems that surround that such as paranoia. I remember doing this quiz when I was younger for all the shit's and giggles and funnily enough one quick search and I found the quiz again. If you want to take it yourself, click here. It's strangely worth doing. Not so that you can get some random medical diagnosis, but just for the shits and giggles! At the end of the day, it's not a correct diagnosis, so by taking this quiz it doesn't necessarily mean you definitely have these certain disorders. Only a doctor specialised in mental health can really determine this sort of thing, not some random quiz on the internet. Anyway, so I re-did the test and my results are below.

Theme: It Happened. If anyone can remember my blog entitled 'Group Therapy?'. Where I discussed a group that I attend to, that I love, and how I couldn't have anyone else there as it would make me feel uncomfortable? Well it happened. A person that I didn't want to come, came. I can't talk about it to much, as I am trying to keep this blog positive and I know I will just burst out in tears. There is nothing I can do. Group just generally went awful today. I just felt on edge and when I was asked to do a task, I couldn't do it which just made me beat myself up so much. I think I've had a really bad day today in all honesty, I am hoping to just sleep this off.

Theme: College Went into college today and we finally have our teacher back. Which I am very grateful for. However, my friend wasn't there for me to share my joy with. Instead, I got stuck with this energy sucking vampire. This person is absolutely lovely, but my god, this person talk's shit. If it was new shit every time, I could deal with. But it's just so repetitive. Other than that, nothing has really happened at college. New day, same shit. However, my phone has promised me sun (again) for tomorrow, and if it lie's to me again, it's going to have another dent in it.

Theme: Printer, May you rest in fucking pieces. I killed my printer today. After many, many beatings. I'm glad it's gone. I worked for five hours on these posters that I am so, so very proud of. I went to print them and half way through my printer decided that the ink inside it, wasn't genuine. Which is bullshit. Now, I am going to have to print it at college, which I hate doing as it's more hassle then it's really worth. He's now sitting on my table, hopefully feeling really sorry for himself.

Theme: Premenstrual Dysmorphic Disorder (Men, Be Warned) Is me. It is an exact description of me. Most of the side effect's listed on various websites are a definition of me. Obviously there is premenstrual syndrome (pms) but premenstrual dysmorphic disorder is worse then pms. The symptoms of Premenstrual Dysmorphic Disorder usually begin a few days for the period and stops just after the periods start. Don't get me wrong, I'm no doctor. It just creeps me out that for a few days I can feel all these symptoms and the next day I'm fine. The "symptoms" I get that relate to PDD are: -Suicide Ideation, -Intense anxiety, -Increased intense sensitivity to rejection or criticism, -Panic attacks, -Rapid and severe mood swings -Feeling overwhelmed or feelings of being out of control -Increased need for emotional closeness -Increase or decrease in sex drive -Insomnia or hypersomnia, -Chronic fatigue, -Food cravings or binge eating, -Headaches, -Feeling ...

Theme: Nothingness There's something I really want to talk about (Premenstrual dysmorphic disorder) but frankly, I cannot be arsed but I really want to touch on it at some point. So I shall do tomorrow. Nothing's happened today, just as I had hoped really. I didn't go to placement and when I rang college they didn't have a fit on me. Since my parents have been away I have been cleaning up everyday, and doing my brothers pots. Whilst he's been out shopping. I am doing all the fucking house thing's, and he's happily leaving me to it. I mentioned it to my grandma and all I get is "well, it won't hurt you." No, fair enough it won't. But it wouldn't hurt him to give me some help. I don't know what it is with my grandparent's but they perceive me as a really lazy person. I didn't eat at all yesterday as I was so bogged down with house work. Seeing as my brother had left pots in the sink. He doesn't even wash his own pots, c...

Theme: Meh I'm not going placement tomorrow. They can get fucked. I'm not in the mood to have client's yelling at me or having to entertain them, I just don't have the energy. I figured out what my perfect job would be though. I'd love to work in an office. I love computers, computers sort of love me, I get to have my ipod in and just....type.

Theme: Ooooh The Pain! After all the boost I had yesterday I kind of feel in pain for it now. I ache all over. My heart is kind of packing up, and I can feel it's beat in my right thumb. I am incredibly tired yet so awake. I'm just all cuddled up on the sofa with a blanket. I can't eat yet as after the chinese I had yesterday, it made my stomach literally go solid and it felt stupidly uncomfortable. I tried to help flush it with a two liter bottle of water which helped, however I was doing bathroom trips every two seconds. Never again will I eat that much. I don't dare take a painkiller as It might cause more damage. Ha. I had a really good night though regardless of the pain. We went bed, well laid on my living room floor with all intention to go sleep, but by the time we got comfy, we just started talking again. We had like an hours nap at 3am-4am. We just went in and out of sleep really. With a bit of luck, we can repeat this next week, just without the pain.

Theme: The Devil Inside (Spoiler Alert) I went to see The Devil Inside yesterday as it was the first day it was out. Every time I pick a film for Steve and I to see, it's always rubbish. I am never choosing a film ever again. It was so, so awful. I was really disappointed. It's kind of like at the end of the film, the writer's got bored of writing it so they just decided to end it with a random car crash. Everyone in the cinema was sitting there like "....?". It seemed like a very low budget movie. Many of the thing's that happened are impossible. For example: you can't take your bag into a psychiatric ward because of safety reasons. However, it happened. Also, these priest's got left alone with a women who is "mentally ill/possessed". It just wouldn't happen. It seemed very rushed. There was one good scene that shown some intensity, and that was when a priest shot himself. Otherwise, it was just crap.

Theme: Alton Towers My Alton Towers ticket's came for Steve and I. We got an awesome date. The 14th April, which is next month! Plus it landed on a saturday like we had hoped so it will be easier for us to get there. If not it might be a case of us having to hire a coach. But I don't think we will have to. I am so excited. I haven't gone on a rollercoaster in years. Even then, we're talking like the teacups or something and I screamed my head of on them. I'm incredibly excited. I've never been Alton Towers before, I wonder what it's like. Steve hasn't been either. Using a map is boring, so chances of us getting list is high. However, that's the fun of it!

Theme: Boost! Were so high. Muhahha. Were watching horror films, that we are finding hilarious. My stomach hurts from all the boost. My heart isn't palpitating yet, so I'm going to drink the hell up! So far I have had one can of red bull and one liter of boost. I still have another liter left. Yay!

Theme: Friend coming over! My friend's coming over today. All I am going to say is may the lord have mercy on our souls.

Theme: Tiredness I am just so, so tired. I would kill to be able to take a sleeping pill right now, but I am kind of scared that I won't hear if my hedgehog is in danger. I'm not talking serious danger, I'm talking about all the dumb shit he get's up to. Like sleeping under the newspaper. He's found a new habit now though to be fair, which is why I won't take the sleeping pill. He's decided it's funny to drag his sleeping bag into his water bowl. and turn it round so that he cannot get in it. I have no fucking idea how the bugger is doing it. It's just that if he does manage to get in it, and it's wet, I don't want him sleeping in it all night as it will be cold. I'd feel like I'm encouraging hibernation if I just let him do that. So no sleeping pill for me tonight. Fuck.

Theme: College bullshit Chances are we are going to have to go to Ofsted about all the problems we are having there. One of our teachers didn't turn up again so when we went to go and complain, we found out that they changed the timetable dates without even telling us. However, we also got covered by an awesome teacher in our next lesson who basically helped us write the complaint letter and told us she doesn't care if they found out she helped as she is only staying on till June. Ha. Awesome.

Theme: Pretty Pipe cleaners Despite the above blog, I guess I did have a slightly productive day today. My friend brought in some pipe cleaners of all colours. I just want to note that she robbed them from the salvation army. Tut tut. However, we had fun. I made her some awesome glasses and in return, she made me a crown. This was during a lesson like. Fun fun.

Theme: Being Feral: Day One. So for breakfast this morning I had a whole packet of Oreo's. However, I did make myself a healthy sandwich lunch. So I'm not fully feral, not yet. I'm tidying up making sure that when my friend's "come to tea" my house isn't a feral. So, here's what I need to do before they come: -Cut the grass, -Polish upstairs & downstairs -Hoover -Make sure all the bins are empty -Properly clean hedgehog cage -Make sure all the pots are washed -Turn on automatic air freshener in my room -Make sure bathroom as toilet roll and towels -Sweep and mop the floor -And make sure there is not the whole kitchen's worth of pot's in my room.

Theme: Joey Luke. Massive thank you to Joey Luke for sending me lot's of poems. I have stored them in a special plastic wallet so they don't get damaged. Your thank you note is on the way. They where a lovely read when they arrived today. The stickers made me smile, so I'm keeping the envelope. Haha.

Theme: Apologies in advanced. My brother has just okayed my little get together of two people! I am so fucking looking forward to it. I just want to apologise you blogspot, and to my readers for any profanities that will be on my blog. I do intend to get completely wasted on boost/red bull and blog. I wouldn't be surprised if I blog about forty two blogs, and only being able to understand two of them the next day. We're going to get high on caffeine quietly as I know my brother is going to be just upstairs. Ha-ha. I'm keep this really quiet, only blogspot and the two friend's coming know.

Theme: Becoming Feral My parent's are getting ready to go on holiday. I won't be home alone like but still. My parent's haven't even walked out the front door yet and I am already dressed in my comfiest pj's and I have a pile of DVD'S stacked up downstairs. I won't open the chocolate till they have gone, avoiding the sharing like. When they come back, they will find me in the same spot on the sofa as they left me, spilling out of my pj's and only able to recite the lines in the films. How brilliant that I don't even have to go to work tomorrow. Excite.

Theme: I swear, your worse than a women. I’m still remembering to make sure that everything I blog is positive. Rants are not included, and this is simply just a rant. I seem to have had a lot of male friend’s over my teenage years. Yet recently I’ve found that many of them, if things don’t get their own way, they get their huff and completely delete you from their life. What’s even weirder is when you know you have done nothing wrong, is that they don‘t even bother to tell you! In my eye’s, if that’s the case, then you have done nothing wrong at all. If they won’t tell you what you have done, then you have simply done nothing. I think doing that, deleting someone from your life without an excuse, is such a stereotypical female way to go around things. This post is about a specific person and now I’ve written about it, I can rid my mind of the piece of trash that he obviously is. I won’t lie, it did hurt. But if you cannot give me a reason as to why you don’t want me in your life an...

Theme: Sunlight! The sun is well and truly out to play! It’s meant to be sixteen degree’s Monday and Thursday. Which is brilliant for me because on Thursday we have a hideously long break on a Thursday so I’m sure me and Steve, if she’s better, we shall be heading down to Abbey Park. I know sixteen degree’s isn’t much, but it is if you are living in the United Kingdom. This week is probably our summer. That’s it.

Theme: Andrea, The Walking Dead. You've always got to have one complete and utter fucking idiot in the group. I am honestly so sick of her constant moaning about having a gun! The group was right to not give her a gun in the first place, but as soon as she was trusted with one, she shot Daryl. If I had to sacrifice one member of the group to be chomped up by walkers, she would be my first choice. She grates on me like a cheese grater.

Theme:  The Walking Dead I have waited for ages to watch the walking dead and now I have the chance I'm watching the shit out of it! I think this is my favourite season however, I haven't watched the first one in so long I don't think I can actually say which is my favourite as I've forgotten most of the thing's that took place in season one. Eitherway, I'm glad to be watching it again.

Theme: Wisdom Of The Hidden Realms Oracle Cards One of my care deck's came today! They are absolutley beautiful. I've had a quick fiddle with them, but it's something I'm going to have to sit down with in silence and use. They are so stunning and outlined in gold. I'm starting up a little collection and I know it's something that I really shouldn't be doing.

Theme: Oracle Cards I ended up treating myself to two packs of Oracle Cards this morning. I just brought Wisdom of the hidden realms cards and healing with the fairies cards. Excited to get them! I have a deck of tarot cards, however I just can't click with them. I click so well with my Earth Magic cards I usually always use them instead of my Archangel Micheal one's as I've just never clicked with them either. I also found out on Thursday that you're not meant to keep them near a computer. Ooops. Sorry cards. I use my computer to prop up my cards, haha. So I will have to move them. I think it may also go for all my crystals, which are placed on my desk aboce my computer. So that's a doubble shitter. Card's I own now: -Archangel Micheal Oracle Cards, Earth Magic Oracle Cards, Wisdom Of The Hidden Realms Oracle Cards, Healing With The Fairies Oracle Cards, -Wildwood Tarot

Theme: Nothingness (Again!) Lately everything has been too boring, well too boring for a blog anyway, so I am really just talking bullshit, although it's truthful bullshit. I went to college and only had one lesson. Teacher's are still off sick and the college couldn't even be bothered to sort out a cover. I swear my list of complaints is slowly turning into a burn book (mean girls). Not that I mind. I'm going to get one hell of a buzz when I hand it in at the end of the year. When I leave, I will never, ever look back. Well, I might on the memories with my friends, but that's it. Everything else about the college can just get fucked.

Theme: Tea With The Queen Yep, we got the joyous visit of her today. Not impressed. She screwed up my bus route. Why would you want to visit Leicester anyway, it's a shit hole? If I was the queen I would demand going to every theme park in the world. I'd also insist on lay inn's. I wonder how she wakes up in the morning. Do you think her butler (who I've decided is called Mr.Jeeves) come's in and wakes her up? Or do you think she has some obscene song that rings on her blackberry alarm to wake her up? Do you think she check's her phone for any bbm's in the morning? Anyway, if I was the queen, and if I could visit anywhere in the world, it would be Alaska.

Theme: Nothingness. (I lie) I say that I have nothing to say, but it will probably be like yesterday, I'll post another three blogs. College was a waste of time as usual. I could of stayed in bed, wrapped around my pillow. I'm still building my complaints for the college. I am just so sick of it. I am so grateful that I am surrounded by such great people to sort of soften the blow of how shit college actually is. However, I now get lay in's on a Thursday & Friday, so I can't really complain. Well, I can. But just not about the lay inn's.

Chris: The last, airy expulsion of his breath. His open face as the clearing light of the sun shines in his eyes. It is a face of peace, love, a face of true, deep serenity. The eyes joyously open and the corners of his mouth ease into the subtle smile of euphoric wisdom. Thats the way he settles to stillness. He made it. He lived. He loved. And he died alive

Theme: Christopher Mccandless The picture below is probably one of my favourite photo's of Chris. It was actually his final picture of himself, holding his farewell note. You won't be able to see what is written on the peice of paper, but it says "I have had a happy life and thank the lord. Goodbye and may god bless all!" I guess it's my favourite because of the smile. He knows he's dying, but he's happy, he's lived.

Theme: Nothingness. Nothing really happened today. Just have to blog everyday as usual. Me and my friend tried to make it an awesome day by getting hyper on energy drinks. I knew I was just in for an epic fail when I brought a sugar free energy drink. Would of got me nowhere. Thank goodness college was down for a trade. Ha. Also, we did have someone come and talk to us about the complaints we handed in. However, it was nothing to serious. They basically just said that they are onto all of the cock ups. Pssst, you have red on you. ♥

Theme: College. I gave in a list of complaints into my college last Wednesday. I got a text from them earlier today saying that there going to have a discussion with me & other student's about all the problems. I won't lie, I'm really nervous as I dread to think what they are going to say. I'll have to let you know about it all tomorrow! Let's just hope they will still let me in college, ha.

Theme: Happiness I think its the weather that is making me so happy. The sun comes out oh so rarely. I've just been thinking about life in general and how it can be taken away at any moment. You see it happening all the time. The innocent, loosing their lives. I can drop dead in the middle of typing this blog. I guess lately I've realised what a gift life can be. Depending what you do with it, of course. I think that I should start realizing that much more than I should. Mainly because that gift can be taken away any second. If I was to kick the bucket now, I'd want to have something to show for it. I'd want to say I did things and that I died, alive. Y'know? I think as sadly as it sounds, I feel this way because of Chris Mccandless. He did what he wanted in life, he got what he could out of it. I want to do more with my life. Do some extreme shit. Become an adrenalin junkie. Whatever, just do something. I don't want to just grow up, go work and die. I want g...

Theme: It's My Birthday! I got the Into The Wild hardback addition (I already have the kindle addition but I wanted a physical version of it and it had to be hardback). I also got some clothes, perfume and money. I'm getting ready to go shopping now and later on I'm off to the cinema. I'm having a pretty awesome day, I won't lie. The tattoo I had yesterday is healing very nicely and at a fast pace. I'm currently listening to Eddie Vedder (Into The Wild soundtrack) and I am overall really happy with everything right now. I am also really chuffed I got some perfume. I sprayed some of my year old perfume on me a few days ago and it literally smelt like I've been swimming in pure alcohol. Who knew that perfume also has an expiry date?

(My collection completed on: 4/3/2012 - Not to mention my tattoo or kindle addition)

Theme: Mutha Fukka! Goodness gracious me, that was a chair gripper! I totally ♥ my new tattoo. I didn't expect it to look this good and I was so nervous about it. The bird is more detailed and bigger than I thought, however, it looks better like that! Devils Own have done such a good job and I really cannot fault them! However, it hurts. So bloody much. I heard someone say "The shoulder is the best place to get tattooed pain wise" is it fuck! Although, I can honestly say all the pain was totally worth it. The best way to describe tattoo pain is a drill, but it's a needle, drilling into your skin at a stupidly fast speed. The worst part of it is just feeling the vibrations of it in that area. Now that the actual tattoo is done, I am left with such a big sting, it feels like a major sun burn. Ah well, massive thanks again Thrax!

Theme Pearl Jam Today is the day, I finally find the true definition of "music". Admittedly I listen to some real crap music. I listened to Pearl Jam for the first time today with thanks to my Into The Wild album which is played by Eddie Vedder. He has a really lovely and additive voice. I half expected Pearl Jam to be fairly heavy. Well from what I have listened to so far, it's mainly acoustic, and it's beautiful. However, I have only listened to a few song's so I may stand corrected. " Nothing you would take Everything you gave Hold me til I die Meet you on the other side... " - Just Breathe, Pearl Jam.

One hundredth post! (I made it! I have done one hundred post's in less than three months)

Theme: Into The Wild Soundtrack Yes, yes I have even brought the soundtrack. Although, I do actually love it. When I am listening to the tracks, I can actually see the scene's in my mind where the song's would be playing. My favourite song on the album at the moment is Long Nights. I'll post a picture of my Into The Wild collection after my birthday, as my mum is holding the hardback version of it until my birthday (sunday). When I put the CD into my laptop, it made a really funny noise. I did a little on the inside, half expecting that my laptop has munched the CD up. It hasn't, my laptop is just new to all this awesomeness. " Society, you're a crazy breed Hope you're not lonely without me... Society, crazy indeed Hope you're not lonely without me... " - Society, Eddie Vedder.

Theme: Oooh Friend! I have a new plant friend named Kathy! Thanks to my friend Steve who brought me a plant, which is now sitting outside after just having a lovely shower. I've never had my own plant before. I'm going to look after him. My mum said that them sort of plants grow huge and into bushes. Fuck yes! Thank you so much Steve for my present's and I love my pocket altar! I shall post picture's of it as soon as possible!

Theme: Oooh Tattoo! My tattoo is tomorrow and I am extremely nervous as to how it is going to look. I don't want to walk away with nothing and £30 of a deposit lost. However, I don't want something on my skin forever, that I well and truly hate. I'm especially nervous as I have left certain thing's up to the artist. Only time will tell. I just need lots of lucks to be wished my way.

Theme: Oooh College! Went into college today. Guess what? Teacher was off. I only went in for one lesson as well which started at 1. Bloody waste of time. I really need to do some coursework. I just can't be bothered with any of it anymore. Especially as it is my birthday sunday, and my tattoo tomorrow, I clearly have other thing's circling my mind.

Theme: Oooh summer! Yesterday I dusted of my summer playlist and was listening to that for the first time in ages! One of my favourite song's for the summer is: The Boys Of Summer by the Ataris. I even wore my flip-flops yesterday. However, I am very regretful as now my feet absolutely kill. Even when wearing my trainers today. I felt like my feet were on death row. Seeing as I really had no lesson's today. Me, Steve and Kathy (the plant) decided to head for Abbey park. Lovely day me thinks.

Theme: Back ache I have really bad back ache and I am not really sure if I can be bothered to travel for an hour to college, to see a cover tutor for a few minutes, than travel back for another hour. We have been promised that the cover tutor will be doing something with us. How much do you want to bet the "activity" will involve writing down our names on a piece of paper so we can go home? If that is the case, I will kick off. I have missed two lessons this morning simply because they just weren't worth going to. I know I haven't missed a thing. Tomorrow, I will yet again, only be going in for one lesson. My attendance used to be about 98%. I will get my attendance today and post it on here so blogspot can have a laugh at how bad it's got. My attendance represents my slipping motivation. Although, I think my motivation has hit the ground.