Ramblings Of A Rambler

Theme: Coronation Street When to Manchester to see the coronation street set today with my mum. It was really good and it felt so weird to be walking down the cobbles that famous stars have walked down. Great experience. When I got home I had a chippie. Which was a great end to the day as I'm starting my diet tomorrow. I'm excited. I've waited ages to get it going. Wish me luck.

Theme: Trip tomorrow Going to the coronation street set tomorrow. Looking forward to it. Got my camera ready, everything's packed now I'm just getting ready for an early night.

Theme: Backdating Fucks knows what occurred today.

Theme: Halloween I'm so excited for halloween. Staying in Birmingham. Me and Steve have some decorations so we are going to decorate the hotel room. Nothing to major of  course. I wish I could do pumpkins though, I did them last year at Steve's house. It would be too messy to do in a hotel room though. Boo.

Theme: Backdating More backdating. I don't want to quit this blog, but I'm just struggling with the up keep if it. Blogging literally only takes five minuets out of my time.

Theme: Oh shut the fuck up. People are work are rubbing me up the wrong way. A senior member of staff are slagging off the night staff saying we do fuck all and how she can't wait for us permanent nights to come on days. She wouldn't have said it if I wasn't there, she was just trying to be a total cunt. But to be fair to her, she doesn't even need to try, she just is.

Theme: Patches Nothing new to report other then that I'm buying a ton of cool cartoon patches to go around my belt at work. I bet once I've decorated it, a few blog entries later there will be an entry saying that I've been told to take them off. Boring.

Theme: I dread tuesdays I hate tuesdays because this is when my mum babysits, and I have to help out. I don't mind helping out, but when I'm left alone with it, it raws and it generally doesn't like me. Feelings mutual.

Theme: Woo I'm sexually attracted to days off. I'll just leave it at that.

Theme: The hunger games I am like two years to late on this one. But, I watched the hunger games for the first time today. Yeah, I've been well and truly missing out. I have never watched a film like it, the concept is completely unique. I kind of want to read the books as I've heard they are better. I'm looking forward to the third one coming out. I never watched it because there was such a hype about it. When thing's are really hyped up I find I just get really disappointed by it. It was just on at work one day and I was only catching bits of it, but it seemed alright so I decided to watch it at home. I hope it isn't a new obsession. I don't have much obsession room left! I had to clear out my lego the other day to put my nail kit in my wardrobe. I've swapped one obsession for another. Ideally, I would have prefer to keep my lego up, but my mum was having a paddy.  "May the odds be ever in your favour"

Theme: Six days off! I always look forward to my six days off at work. It makes working so much easier knowing I get six days off from these lot. I just don't care about them anymore. It's all so behavioural. If only they knew what idiots they look like.

Theme: Fuck My frowny piercing is swollen up. It hurt's so much and it's constant. It does this every now and again and each time it does it I get tempted to rip it out. However, I'm used to it being a bell-end every now and again so I'm just going to suck it up and remember it's temporary. It will sort it self out soon. But it just hurts. Eating is such an arseache.

Theme: Drama Nothing new to report really. Just the usual drama with work. With patients I mean, not staff. I'm not in any trouble or anything which seems like a godsend. I breathe and I breathe out of the wrong nostril. Anyway, I'm off to bed. Another £90 in the pocket. Very nice.

Theme: Counting.. Counting down the shift's already and I've not even started work yet. I've just got to survive the next three days, keep my head down and hope for the best. What can go wrong?

Theme: Body By Vi When I went round Sarah's yesterday she had this women round to talk about this diet that Sarah is already on. It's called body by vi. It's an expensive thing, £200 a month. But looks really good, and worth a try. I stick to liquid diets really well. I stuck to slim fast for over three months before my body just started to reject the fluids. I lost two stone on it. I've brought all the stuff online for cheaper and I'm going to start it on the 1st October. Looking forward to it.

Theme: Sarah's Going round Sarah's tonight. I always look forward to going there, as you know. When I think about it, she's the one that knows me the most. It's nice knowing you have someone that does support you. Anyway, I'm all packed up and ready to go. Excite!

Theme: Woo Not much longer and I get two days off which I will be spending round Sarah's house. Looking forward to it. I'm looking forward to my annual leave with her even more when she comes and stays round my house. I hope it goes ahead.

Theme: Backdating Backdating. I've had an awful lot of it to do. I went to some of my past post's today and I was in a fit of hysteric's to some of the thing's I've posted. I'm such a bellend haha. I can't wait for it to be a few more years down the line and I look back. I'll probably piss myself with laughter.

Theme: Beep Not much to say unfortunately. Just plodding along as usual. 

Theme: Riddled I've got around twenty mosquito bites now. There so itchy, red and sore all the time. No one else in my family has been bitten. I'm bloody well diseased.

Theme: Aqua Aerobics Went to my first aqua aerobics session today. It was amazing! At times you could really feel the resistance of the water. Everyone was really nice and friendly certainly looking forward to going back!

Theme: Untitled I'm a useless excuse for a human being.

Theme: Yay Day off, thank god. Time to recover and just spend some time to myself. All I want to do is sit and read.

Theme: Low I feel really low tonight. Surprise, Surprise. I went onto the depression chat room and I was even ignored on there too. Yay. My mum suggested that I go on online dating. I hate it when she does that. it outlines how alone and pathetic I really am. I shouldn't be here. I'm worthless. I have no one here to help me anymore, I'm just so alone. I'm disgusting and vile and fat. I just feel like I'm hurting, and people had the opportunity to help me out tonight.

Theme: Girls just wanna have fun! I've got a lot of things to look forward to for the rest of this year. As discussed before, if I organise things to distract myself and give myself something to look forward to I don't feel so shit all the time. 31st September - Coronation street tour 31st October - Birmingham Clubbing 3rd November - Sarah stays 12th December - Ghost hunting 25th December - Christmas Then after this year I've got Amsterdam and my birthday to look forward to. Not to mention Florida at the end of the year!

Theme: Score! Brought two tickets to go on a ghost hunt today ready for December. Me and Sarah are going, it's at the towers. A closed down mental health hospital. It's an overnight thing. I'm so excited. One more thing crossed off my bucket list. I've only paid deposit as I don't know what I'm working. Either way In going. Even if I somehow "feel unwell" that day.

Theme: Riddled! I've been bit what feels like, all over. My foot, below my bra at the back, my arm. I've ruined my foot. I've scratched so much I have a huge scratch over my tattoo. I hope it heals okay. I'm riddled with bloody disease I am!

Theme: Nephews Birthday My nephews birthday today. It was horrendous. I felt so damn anxious throughout the whole thing. My dad was being a wanker the moment he walked in my house and he was a wanker at the party. I sat there in silence trying not to be the fat disgrace that I am.

Theme: Two more Two more night shifts and I have six days off. Fab. It's nice having something to look forward to. Even if that something is nothing. I'm still collecting a ton of DVDS so I plan to just watch them and go the gym. If I'm lucky enough maybe even go Sarah's? I doubt I'll go though but one can only hope.

Theme: bloody fast! I can't believe it's September the 1st already. Time has flown by to such a scary extent! The next few months are hopefully going to be promising though, and much better then what they have been.