Ramblings Of A Rambler

Theme: Bleurgh The first of my three shifts. I hope no one talks to me haha.

Theme: Rich Went to see Rich today. Of course, it went well. I love seeing him. I can really pine for him when I haven’t seen him in a while. I love being his. It means so much to me.

Theme: Smoking It’s really hard to quit smoking. Especially when it come’s to quitting it at work. I’m so reliant on it there. Like, without smoking, I wouldn’t be able to have a cigarette. I wouldn’t be able to get away from everyone for five minutes. I know it's a silly excuse but people get under my feet after a while. It's what keep's me sane.

Theme: Boo Last day with Richie until my parent’s come home. He’s currently sleeping next to me. He doesn’t snore to loud which makes me look terrible. I snore like a heavily rested dinosaur. 

Theme: Chill/Panic Attack It’s been a really nice chill day today. I’ve spent it watching Buffy with Richie. It didn’t start of too great though. I had a panic attack in the shower. Go me.

Theme: Sleepover! Richie is coming round to sleep whilst my parent’s are on holiday. I’m so excited. I haven’t seen him in ages because he’s been ill with a cold. So we have some catching up to do, and lots of snuggles are owed.  He’s staying round till Tuesday.

Theme: Prepare! My parent’s are going away on holiday tomorrow with my nephew and Richie is coming round, so today me and my mum are just cleaning the house top to bottom. I love it when my room is all clean and I can just sit back and breathe in all the freshly goodness.

Theme: Tattoo! I got a new tattoo! It’s a disney one. It’s so pretty. Hurt so intensely badly. I sat for four hours before he ran out of time so I still have another hours work on it. I swore at the tattooist a few time’s. My bad. Sorry. But jeez, when I was sitting through it I actually thought ‘never again’, and I still believe myself. It hurt so badly.

Theme: Homeless My mum threw me out. She shouted at me, so I shouted back. So she told me to pack my thing’s and just go. So I did. Where did I go? Down the park. She was going out shortly after and I had a key on me, so I just went back home when I knew she would have gone out. It triggered me though, big time. I tried to cut myself on some broken glass I found down the park. It didn’t work, so when I went home I just used my blades that I keep in my safe. She just accused me of not helping her on eBay, even though I was stood behind her the whole time instructing her what to do. She apologised for chucking me out anyway.

Theme: Nervous I have my tattoo soon. I'm so nervous. Like, what if I don't like it? I always get nervous before a tattoo. Pfft.

Theme: Shudder Ew, after catching up on a few thing's on my blog, I noticed I missed a day out. This day. How grows. I'm going to have to check my whole blog in case any other day is missed. For fuck sake. Obviously I can't write anything for today, because the actual date is 04-07-16. So who knows what I did on this date like two months ago?!

Theme: Working I’m working tonight so it’s the same old shit. Same old nonsense, same old crazy bitches.

Theme: Plan I couldn’t sleep for tonight’s shift. Why? Because I was talking with Steve about booking our America holiday (in October 2017.) We plan to be booking it in August. Like, oh my god, oh my god. I love how I’m planning to go disneyland paris next year with Richie, and then disney world with Steve. I’m so excited for 2017. Everything is very slowly, but surly, falling into place.

Theme: Steve Just plotting thing's with Steve. We haven't seen each other for a while so we're just lightly discussing florida next year and possibly going blackpool this year over halloween.

Theme: Backdating I’m backdating, so I have no idea what happened today. I was probably at Richie’s. Hehe.

Theme: Bleurgh Unfortunately I have nothing to say today. It’s just a nothingness day, which I don’t mind.

Theme: Off I love having this amount of time of. It makes me feel like I can breathe again after being so emotionally irritated by others (patients and staff). I couldn’t work more than three days like I used to. It’s too emotionally crippling and I’d be constantly one edge.

Theme: Chill Having a chill day today. Just spending time running around on the internet making note of thing’s to buy. 

Theme: Sleep I love the amount of sleep I get after a night shift. I sleep like shit loads and then wake up at like 2am and watch movies and fall back sleep at around 6am. Night shift’s FTW.

Theme: Last Night Shift  Yay, it’s my last night shift before having six days off. How wonderful. I have nothing planned other then see Richie ♥

Theme: Bored Bored of working with the same bitchy people. Can’t be doing with it. I have like no patience anymore. Oh diddums. 

Theme: Yuck God, I hate first night shift’s. it’s a proper killer. It’s just like your body clock is having none of this shit. I hope tonight goes good and fast.

Theme: Nothing Nothing new, it’s just that awkward day before work, where you know you have work the next day and therefore cannot relax. Boo. Anyway, it's a tuesday, so I've just been dossing at Richie's.

Theme: Backdating Just backdating on my blog. I want to go through all my entries again to make sure everything is all neat and tidy. As over time some picture URL’S go missing and maybe some detail need’s adding to some post ect.

Theme: Chill Last night was loverly. My parent’s went out for a few hours so me and Richie got to do the nasty (haha). I missed being physically close to him in that way. So it was nice. After that we just ordered in Chinese and sat and watched Buffy. It’s a shame he had to go home. Anyway, today we went to the bird sanctuary in Desford which was amazing as always. I love writing about these happy memories. Gives me something to smile about.