Ramblings Of A Rambler

“Forget me, It's that simple.” - Your Own Disaster, Taking Back Sunday

Theme: Kay. I'm feeling crappy. I haven't heard from Sarah in ages. I feel like she's ignoring me. On purpose. She doesn't want to know me any more. She's done with the workplace and therefore done with me. It's making me feel awful because I told her so much and got so far with her it's just such a reminder I have no one. I don't want to go back to being so alone again. It hurts.

Theme: Same old Working tonight. Nothing new there. It's my last night then I get a few nights off. Excite. Nothing new to report really, still low, still tearful. Eating crap all the time. I wouldn't be surprised if I've gained weight. Although I'm on the slimfast diet I'm still eating crap. But I'm enjoying every fucking mouthful.

Theme: Thank god for spare underwear! My god, there is this new shadow that started yesterday and I hates him because he's so abrupt and a bit rude. However, he sat with my on bedroom observations today and he just wouldn't stop making me laugh. He's so fucking funny and down to earth. At one point he just turned round to me and said: "are you a virgin?" out the blue. I couldn't contain myself. He's going to be such a laugh to work with.

Theme: Pay day! God my wage slip is a massive turn on. Laughing all the way to the bank I am! I'm going on a massive spending spree now. Just buying Xbox games and DVDs. I don't buy shit for myself often and receiving parcels improves my mood.

Theme: Altar Nearly finished building my altar. Damn it looks cute. I'm waiting for the final piece, the center. I'm so proud of it, when it's done I can post a photo and show it off! It's took years for me to build one because I didn't know what my parents would say, I'm glad I woke up one day and said fuck it because they haven't said a single word!

Theme: Pictures I've not been posting pictures with my blog entries lately. It breaks up the writing and makes thing's more colourful so I want to try and add more pictures. Anyway, Sian has fucked with the wrong person. I am totally done with her. To the point where I am now pulling a binding spell on her. Of course I can't do any harm to her, and to be honest, I have no intention to do so. It's a freezing spell. To basically stop her in her tracks. I believe with three fold, that sometimes it wont get involved, to give you a chance to take karma into your own hands. So I'm taking it into my own hands. Karma doesn't always effect the right people the way it should, and I'm sick of waiting for it to do so. I'm going into work Monday, and I will be getting some thing's together for it, like her signature. I won't be seeing her at all next month due to the way thing's have rota'd so I can't get her hair or anything. (I'd find a...