Ramblings Of A Rambler

Theme: Can't sleep I can't sleep so in keeping myself busy which I know I shouldn't be and doing nail art. It's hard but practice and it will be a piece of piss. I brought a nail extension kit today so I can start doing my own extensions. I don't think I'll use them on myself because overall extensions slaughter your nails!

Theme: Bitch! This stupid little girl at work is proper getting on my nerves. She's going to get me in trouble I can feel it. She has anorexia and she was looking at pro-ana websites. After I told her to get off them she accused me of looking at them myself in my own time. She is always accusing me of having an eating disorder or self-harming. Sure, I self harm but no one at work knows. But if other members of staff find out it could been seen as a bit dodgy and I'd end up being called up. The only good thing about it is every time she accuses me of something I tell the nurses to try and cover myself. She's done it to other people. Accused them of having an eating disorder and then they've been called up as the boss thinks they've told her personal information. She doesn't realise she can get people sacked. She's a spoilt brat.

Theme: Woo! My boss is quitting! 18th of July. I'm going to count this mother fucker down! I'm going to get the booze and chocolate in and celebrate! Bells to the yeah.

Theme: Law Abiding Citizen Watching this damn film for like the fourth time this week. I've probably learnt the damn script. I don't mind. It's totally worth the watch. If you haven't seen it, go watch it. I love clever films like this. I think this film actually gives me a little bit of an adrenalin rush. Ha.

Theme: Rest I've got three more days off work then I'm calling in sick and having seven days off. I can't wait. I'm going to do some expertise things and just generally apply for jobs. I think I might even be seeing Kaylee on Tuesday. Either way this week off has been a long time coming.

Theme: Backdating Just backdating on everything. Nothing happened today anyway which is why I am taking the opportunity to get everything to date. I've realised at work I can't do anything right. I get told off every shift. Even when the fault isn't my own. I can't do anything right.

Theme: Job Applications I've applied to work in the prison services, finally a vacancy came up. However the words "under go a fitness test" kind of hints to me I won't be getting it. Ha. However, if I get an interview, I can go to it and use the interview for experience for next time I apply. As I'll get myself fit and hassle them shawshank redemption style. Other then that I've finally got through to the Bradgate unit for their banking. Which I'm currently just waiting for the application pack to arrive. I've also applied for multiple jobs in the NHS that actually look interesting. Maybe this job leave couldn't come at a better time. I walked into work today and a patient came up to me and said "you look like you needed a hug yesterday" I thought damn it! That's the kind of shit that would make me want to stay. But I just feel my heart is set on leaving. I feel less stressed knowing there's a big chance in going.