Seventy One
There is this group that I used to attend to. It stopped recently due to christmas, and it start's again tomorrow. I feel ridiculously comfortable at this group knowing that no one from my outside world is going. I like the fact that I have made relationships with people there and I have done this on my own. There are very few place's that I feel comfortable, and good god it taken me along time for me to come out of my shell. So I know that if anyone from this world, went into the group, it would completely turn me upside down. The group is there for me to develop in a specific subject that I won't mention now, but I know that if people I know came to the group, all of my hard work of developing, I think it would be completely undone. I know it's really selfish of me. I just wouldn't be able to cope with it. It's like my second home. It's a chance for me to be around people, that have similar beliefs to me, and I can just be, me. I'd feel on edge if there was someone there that I knew. I wouldn't be me. I'd be a completely different person. The only option for me would be to quit the group and become self taught. However, you can't practice on yourself. The group has made me a better person and I have been counting down my days until I go back. I just want to go there and forget my outside world.
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