Two Hundred & Nine

Theme: Social Anxiety

I'm going out with a friend next week to town/club. I've been waiting to go for a long time, but now I have the opportunity to go, I feel as nervous as fuck. I guess it's because I just have no idea what to wear. As I am somewhat of a big build, it's the thought of someone coming up to me in a drunken stupor and mentioning it. Or worse, if they are sober. If they are sober, then they meant what they just said. I won't be wearing a dress, that's for sure. I feel at home in jeans. Jeans and trainers. I can't wearing trainers, so that add's to anxiety. Not only that, it's being in a room full of strangers. People can be so cruel and it's just the thought of them approaching me with negative intentions. When people approach me now a days with positive intentions, I am so paranoid because of my past, that I question what their motives were for approaching me. I just automatically believe they are taking the piss.

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