Seven Hundred & Fifty

Theme: I'm struggling

I'm really struggling lately. I feel like crap. Last night the nurse in charge didn't put me on a certain patients obs. I can't help but feel so incompetent around her. Like I can't handle it. Even when I'm sitting with this certain patient the nurse would come sit in between us to take over. No matter what I do it's not the right thing. I feel so ill. My anxiety is sky high and I constantly feel sick, I keep actually being sick and its not helping and its also been joined by a headache because I got so upset at one point I smacked my head on the corner of a door (at home). I won't be doing it again though as my head is killing me and I now have a lump. I just feel so shit about myself its unbelievable. Especially about what that other Carer said to me the other day. I'm going to talk to another Carer about it, one that I work with on a regular basis who I massively get on with and ill prey that she'll tell me the truth on how I'm getting on. I'm such an emotional person it really doesn't take a lot to hurt me. I'm meeting my best friend tomorrow though for a shop, cinema and food. It's what I need. I'm so excited and I know it will help. It's been like two months since I seem her. I think my mood will also improve when I get to talk to that Carer.

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