Eight Hundred & Thirty Three

Theme: Bryne.

Me and Bryne are no more. The reason? Apparently it wasn't the right time to be in a relationship. The thing is, we had our first kiss today (bare in mind this is my first kiss in just under two years) and a few hours later is when I got the text saying we shouldn't be together, stating that we should just be friend's. However, Bryne changed his mind on that too. He doesn't want anything to do with me and has completely disappeared from my life. I'm so upset. I'm always being shut down. I hate it when people do the disappearing act on me. It happen's to me too much. Bryne has honestly left me just confused and hurt because he just won't give me the truth on why he's left, in fact, he's not even talking to me.

So this is how my bloody dating history goes:
Conner - Just fizzled out
Jake - Left me for someone he found on the internet.
Kelly - Left me because "she'll find someone better"
Charlie - Cheated. - then disappeared
Demi - Left me because of my friends - then disappeared
Kelly 2 - Used me to piss of ex.
Mark - This one is actually my fault and I'm grateful to have him in my life.
Alan - Used me for sex, then disappeared
Mike - Used me for sex, then disappeared
Prasadini - Had no feelings for me, but still friend's.
Anthony - Apparently I was cheating on him? Then disappeared
Alex - "Got bored" then disappeared
Ben - "didn't want to string me along" then disappeared
Dave - Had no feelings for me. Still friends.
Bryne - "wasn't ready" then disappeared
It's a fair list, isn't it? I don't want that for myself. How many people have I got to go through to find someone that doesn't treat me like absolute shit. Dear future lover, please don't just disappear/leave me like everyone else does. It hurts.

"Rather than love, than money, than faith, than fame, than fairness, give me truth."

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