Eight Hundred & Fifty Two

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I'm feeling low today, surprise surprise. I got told yesterday that when I first came to work someone made a comment about my weight to someone. It was also said that I'd be useless there and this place wasn't for me. This was said on like my first week of being there, so I don't know who these people think they are, but they can fuck right off. It was Sian that told me about what was said. Chance's are they know nothing about me, because if they did they would know I'm very passionate about mental health and it's something I've always wanted to do. Granted I'm the bloody softy of the lot, but I get thing's done and thing's like incident's don't get to me. What more can these people possibly want? I'm trying so hard but sometime's your all just isn't fucking enough these days. I just feel low. I don't trust anyone there apart from Allison and Sian. These people know nothing about my life or what I've been through. I wonder how much there view would change on me if they knew I'm a self harmer? I just wish everyone was truthful and honest. Come on guys, it's not that hard to be up front. I just want people to stop bitching. It’s hurtful. I only end up punishing myself for their words when really I should be punishing them.

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