One Thousand & Ninety Eight

Theme: Doctors

I have a doctors appointment tomorrow for my anti-depressants. I am nervous and just generally shitting it. I'm scared of the outcome. I'm also tired. Just so fucking tired. I force myself awake yet I just end up staying awake all night.

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