One Thousand Three Hundred & Fifty Eight

Theme: Sex

There's no easy way of saying this without sounding like a complete and utter dirty tramp of a whore but I want sex. Badly. This blog entry is just going to be down right honest so shove any judgements or immaturities aside and just hear me out. When the new year started I decided my resolutions would be to have sex and get high. None of which I have actually done. The getting high can wait till Amsterdamn, I'm not itching for it. I haven't had sex since I was fifteen years old. Nearly seven years it's been. I just feel as though I may as well be a virgin again. My youth is going to waste. I want to do some fun, and exciting.

I thought long and hard about what I was actually going to do about achieving my sex resolution. I felt (and still feel) confident and independent enough with myself to try casual sex and still have that emotional distance. I did have someone who agreed to enter a no string's attached friendship with me. No relationship, just friend's making each other feel good. However, he backed out for reason's that were valid and understandable. Also, when it came down to it we both wanted different sort of sex. I'm up for experiencing every kind of sex but his ideal sex was very cold and distant?

I don't feel like I'm rushing into anything. The reason I want to have sex again is to discover more thing's about me and what I like. There's only so much discovering you can do on your own. One cannot tie themselves up! However, saying all this. I cannot just start casual sex with anyone. I can't bring myself to go to a bar and go home with whatever stranger whom I might meet. I'd want to have trust in that person and confidence that I can openly talk about sex to him. Drunken one night stands that involve in sleeping with all of Leicesters male population is not to my liking.

Since the other guy backed out and we never got anywhere anyway I have been looking for someone. But this someone must have gone into hibernation or something. It's just that, when someone else makes you a cup of tea or cooks you dinner, it's nice isn't it? The same thing applies with bean flicking. When someone else gives your bean a flick it doesn't go unnoticed.

Basically, what I'm trying to say is that my hornyness is getting out of control so someone should come forward and take one for the team before I go on a rampage.