Ramblings Of A Rambler

Theme: 7 Days Off I get seven days off after today. I'm so excited, and after those seven days I'm back on permanent nights. Back to my normal routine. God I hate work.

Theme: Stfu It's been so busy at work today. I could just kill. I've been in the quiet ward which has been more than just quiet, with a new admission, patients being angry at me over reasons that are unknown and another patient relapsing. Keep calm and smoke.

Theme: Work I have work tomorrow, day shift's. It's okay though, I only have two days left and then I have seven days off with my nights to return back to. I'm looking forward to going back to my nights. I'm looking forward to have my days off even more though. I've also got the ghost hunt coming up on Friday.

Theme: 7cups Just spent the day on 7cups. That's all I really do on my day's off. I wonder what I will do with my time once I've earned all the certificates? Will I stay and carry on helping people or will I just not bother and well, fuck it?

Theme: Backdating I just haven't had time to properly keep up to date with this blog. I've just been so stressed out and felt unwell about it all. Any time I get, I get for myself to just mong out and drool at a wall.

Theme: Oooh Friend I should be seeing Kayley next month. So looking forward to it. Not seen her in ages. Last time I saw her we went out for drinks down Derby. I won't forget that night. We have a fair bit to catch up on.

Theme: Big Brother Big brother starts back again next week. I'm so excited. Last years once was awesome, the celebrity one. I usually hate the celebrity one's with a passion . There's just boring nobodies. It was so good even my mum watched it.

Theme: Sleeps Typical, the only time I have off work are the shit days where it's just solid rain. No more tan for Sophie.

Theme: Sexual Health I've decided to specialise more in sexual health on the website I volunteer on. I'm a nosey sod and it's something I enjoy. I'm already in LGBT support (there's only like 10 of us out of the whole website that are lgbt support) so I'm pretty proud of myself. I just feel as though I can talk about sex really comfortably, after all it is a normal natural thing. 

Theme: Nope I'm not up to much. As usual. Just being lazy and watching movies today. Started to catch up on 'american horror show' again. The newest season isn't that good - but I just haven't gave it long enough yet. My favourite season was 1 & 3. Good shit man.

Theme: Weight I feel as though I'm gaining so much weight. I want to get back on track but I need that push of motivation to do it. I'd love to go swimming again. I miss it. I'm scared of how much it is going to kill me when I go on holiday. I'm hideous.

Theme: 7 Cups Of Tea, Part 2.  I've pretty much been on this website obsessively since yesterday. I think I'm doing alright on it. However, some of the people that speak to me, if only my life could be as simple as theirs. They have absolutely no clue of what's a head of them. Today's generation have so little strength in them. "Back in my day". It actually really irritates me. I've had one or two people that have tried to have a sexual chat with me, but I've just blocked it. The waiting line to speak to a listener is long, and half the listeners really aren't very good and don't always reply. Thats why I try to be the best listener I can be. I genuinely want to make this world a better, happier place.

Theme: 7 Cups Of Tea I have now become a trained listener for 7cups of tea. Dead proud of myself. I do have my doubts though on what it will do for my own mental health as listening to everything at work and then coming home to listening to more of it might not do me very good.

Theme: Lonesome I'm on my Todd tonight in the quiet building. There's a staff shortage that's why. If only Netflix worked at actually be happy. I've had to sort out an admission tonight which I have never done before. I wasn't even shown how to do it so fuck knows if I've done it right. The new admission is lovely though. Also, one of the nurses that does the rota has put me back on permanent nights! Woo! She needs to check with Lynn, cross fingers I'm on nights. This day shift malarkey is shit!

Theme: Snap! Same as yesterday really. In the quiet building with Paula. Just monging out. Easy shift.

Theme: Easy Peasy Easy night shift tonight. I'm over in the quiet building (as usual) with a HCA that I have yet to fall out with. So we've just nattered throughout the night. Management came in at 2:30am though to do a spot check to make sure we weren't sleeping. Sad sods.

Theme: Big Secret I have a big secret that's starting to come out. I'm still very confused about it so I won't bring it up on here until I fully understand what happened, and I won't understand until I talk to a professional. Although it feels like I've been waiting for my damn appointment.

Theme: Dossing Just dossing around today. Just got back into reading which is wonderful. I love it when I get back into reading because I can do so much so quick and I always feel so much better from it. I'm currently reading a Cathy Glass book. I have all her books I'm just in the process of working through them.

Theme: Money Trying to save money is a pain. When you don't need money, it's there. When you need money, you're scraping the back of the sofa's praying for just a couple of pence.

Theme: Depression Chatroom I tend to spend a lot of time in a specific chatroom. Even when I'm in an okay mood. I think I do it then because it sort of relaxes me. Knowing that I'm surrounded by like minded and non-judgemental people. It's nice.

Theme: Town Went up town with my mum today, I treated her to a few bits and bobs. Had a lovely day really. It's all sunny and I'm just monging out at home watching American Horror Story.

Theme: Ouch! I went to get my bar's changed on my ear piercing today. It went okay, until she changed the one tucked right inside my ear. I screamed and had to get her to stop.  She eventually had to numb my ear in order to do it, but fuck me it hurt.

Theme: American Horror Story Been pretty bored today so I figured I'd find a new series to stalk. By god did I find one. I was meant to watch it ages ago but never got round to it. I have now brought the next three seasons. American Horror Story. I've been watching it non-stop. It's so fucking good. I can't even. It's so damn twisted their's so many sick twist's and turns. I'm more than just hooked.

Theme: Night shift! Got a night shift tonight. It's my first night shift in like seven weeks. I'm looking forward to being back with the people I usually work with. However, I'm not looking forward to going. I never am.

Theme: Confused I'm a bit confused about my friend Sarah. Things just don't seem to be right. She doesn't seem to have patience with me anymore. She isn't as nice as what she was before the whole king Richard thing. I don't feel like I can trust her or tell her thing's. It just doesn't feel right. I just feel like I'm being used.

"'Cos I realised I got Me, myself and I That's all I got in the end That's what I found out & It ain't no need to cry I took a vow that from now on I'm gonna be my own best friend." -Beyonce

Theme: Easter Happy easter everyone. I'm just having a dossing day as I am still tired from yesterday. Not only that it's a Sunday so Sunday is a dossing day. I have my brother coming round later and that's it. The day is going to be full of sleeping.

Theme: Ghost Hunting Went ghost hunting down to the victorian school in Nottingham. It really wasn't very good. Fairly disappointed to be fair. Me and Sarah both we're. I think it's because the building was so small and the building listed on the advert wasn't the actual building we we're investigating. Not a lot happened. We did some table tipping which was good, but that was about it. There was some real force in the table tipping. Possibly the best table tipping I've done yet? But other then that it was pretty crappy. Sarah and I gone on okay. I felt like I was getting on her nerves though, and like I couldn't do anything right. I just feel crap.

Theme: Bitch I worked with the bitch at work today. It actually went pretty well. If I hadn't met her before I would actually really like her and get on with her. However, knowing what I know. I just sort of played it sweet and got it over and done with. It wasn't as bad as what I was thinking.

Theme: Stress This is a backdate, so it's going to be in past tense. I just remember being highly depressed today. Depressed, desperate and alone. I got every pill I could find in my room and put it on my bed. I was about ready to count them and I heard my mum come upstairs. I had to shove them away anywhere. I had an argument with her perviously on the way home from work which resulted in me to just screaming. Not screaming words. Just...screaming. It's because I didn't want to go back the next day as I was so stressed about working with the bitch of bitches. Anyway, my mum came in my room and we both just talked and cried for a bit. I could go into detail but I don't want to. It's too hard.

Theme: Films Day off today. Feeling a bit rubbishy as it feels like I'm getting a cold back. I'm dreading it as I can't be unwell for Saturday. I've been looking forward to it too much. I'm drinking so damn much. Other then that, I've not done much today just sat around watching films.