Seven Hundred & Seventy Seven

Theme: Patients

The difficulty with mental health patients is that sometimes they just don't want to get better, this is when I feel that I'm being waisted. I'm here to care, to look after people and these patients just aren't letting me in because they don't want to get better. It's stressful because there blocking me from doing what I've been born to do. It's really hurtful when they tell me that I don't care. I do. I can't be clinical and see them as just another patient, number ect. I get to attached. Even if they are crazy and I can't stand them. There not my friends, there not anyone to me, but I see someone suffering and they won't let me help.

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