Nine Hundred & Eleven

Theme: Heimlich Maneuver

I did my first Heimlich maneuver today, worked like a bloody charm. Two goes and out it popped. Before I was actually really anxious about it in case I did it wrong and the patient died. I did it no problems. I was calm through out the whole thing. As if I've done it a million times before. I probably hurt the poor girl though as I did it hard. If someone's trying to kill themselves though I don't want to mess around. I feel sick though and on edge because Sian is on. Her moaning about the same thing is getting too me. I hate it. I just hate it. I really can't stand it when people bitch about my close friends. What the hell am I meant to do? I don't want to be here. My anxiety is on edge. I want to find a big black hole and crawl into it and never come out. It will be safe in my hole. No fucker coming in and no fucker coming out. Every noise is making me jump. I just feel so sick and generally terrified.

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