One Thousand & Eighty Seven

Theme: I Quit!

I've made the decision to quit my job. I just can't do this anymore. I just feel so unwell there. I'm having anxiety attacks all the time. I was having such a crap day today and I walked into work where the patients decided to inform me that they hated me. Usually I don't give a crap but it's just like, today of all days. Couldn't they have just backed the fuck off? The plan is to go to my gynaecology appointment on the 2nd of June, come back and ring in work and call in sick. Say I've had some bad news I'm going to need a few days off. That's time for me to manically apply for jobs. I then have an appointment with my doctor on the 5th to discuss my anxiety and to go on tablets. My mum actually agrees with me going on pills now, because my job is just killing me. It's not the patients, it's not what I do. It's the staff. I love mental health too much. I'm terrified. I'm making myself unemployed. Unemployed from the job I've always wanted. What if this opportunity never arises again? How long am I going to be without a job? Anyway, after I get my meds in going to give them till the end of June to work, to see if it helps takes away any of the intensity. If not and I still want to leave, my notice will be put in for July.

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