One Thousand & Ninety Nine

Theme: Sertraline

Sertraline is the name of the anti-depressant I was prescribed today. I thought I'd be happier after trying to get on anti-depressentants for years however, I just feel more lost and lonely. I was kind of hoping Sarah would be more supportive and remember that my doctors appointment was today seeing as it is a majour stepping stone. However, she hasn't spoken to me since Tuesday. She never randomly ask's how I am. It's always me making the first move. She's so busy trying to drag people down that she doesn't seem to notice the people that are trying to pick her up. I love her to pieces and I know she has a lot on. I could have just done with knowing she was there. I do even feel awful writing this, but the thought is plaguing me and I need to express it. When I went to the doctors today, I went to see my favourite doctor, and he was just down right lovely. He always is, I just didn't feel pressured and it felt like the caring side to him was real. I cried a little. I'm taking my first pill tomorrow. I hope I can function again.

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