Ramblings Of A Rambler

Theme: Steve the snail. I won't lie, I had a really good day at college today. Why? Because i was writing a gay snail erotica with my friend. Now granted I didnt just approach my friend and randomly suggest such an insane idea. It all started with a snail my friend made out of paper. To be honest, I had just drank some cherry coke so after the snail was made, whatever we did to start writing the story is just blank from my mind. The best of all this is that we were doing all this in lesson. I was so hyper and full of sugar I came up with names such as "Mr.Boombazzel" and "Mr.Tillywinkle". Day well spent. May tomorrow be full of erotica.

Theme: Arranged Marriage I think it would be brilliant if I was involved in an arranged marriage. That way the person would HAVE to be stuck with me and it means I won't be dying on my tod surrounded in hedgehogs. However, if I ran my own world, I would run the whole arranged marriage thing a little differently. I think it should be something that you choose. By the time you turn 21 you should get a choice if you want to get involved in an "arranged marriage programme" and if you don't want to go for it when your 21 then every year you get an option if you want to do it or not. Anyway, The programme is where a partner get's picked for you (by a family member, a best friend, someone close of your choice picks for you) and then the programme will arrange the marriage! Also, the way it will work is that divorce is not an option if you are involved in an arranged marriage. That way the sorry full bugger will be stuck with me. Muahah.

Theme: Booked Tattoo My tattoo is now booked for saturday. I am absolutely crapping it. Much more than my others. i think it's because I've designed it myself. I've used three other tattoo's to make this one up. I've also left it up to the artist what he does with a specific part of the tattoo. In some ways, although my tattoo has been booked, I still think that it is only a "might". At the end of the day I am not going to get it if it looks crap. The nerves are going to be with me right till Saturday. It's not going to be good. Don't get me wrong, I am not second guessing my decision, I am just so nervous about it. I feel like I'm throwing up all of my digestive system. Let's just see what happens Saturday at 4pm! I can't believe I'm going to have to wait till four. I dread to think what I will be like.

Theme: Spoiler! I think Steve will agree with me here, that I need my own spoiler label. I always watch skins before her and chances are, I'll go in Wednesday, with the whole plot still in my mind and just tell her everything. I can't help it! It's like I watched Casualty saturday and my parent's watched it sunday. I was so tempted to just spill the plot to them both and wind them up. Seeing as my parent's didn't know I watched it yesterday, I Instead decided to play Dr.Genius and diagnose all the patients before the doctor's had figured it out. They didn't know I watched it the day before, so I got my moment of being clever. Even if it was false. Haha.

Theme: Skins Since the second cast, skins has been so awful. Don't get me wrong, I'm not usually one to judge on physical appearance, but bleeding heck, I don't want to see ugly people having sex! There's chat roulette for that! Not only that, at the end of every episode they show you what happens the following week. They show you all the good's bits so there really isn't much point watching it. I don't even know why I watch it anymore! I know that each cast get's two seasons, so as soon as this finishes' next year with a bit of pot luck, they will have a much better cast.

Theme: Tattoo My tattoo is printed up and I am ready to head down Devil's Own tomorrow to get it drawn up. I'm nervous as fuck in case they cannot do the font that I want. I think I will literally break down. However, the font is easy enough. No one knows what I am having yet apart from my mum. I don't know why I'm not telling anyone. I guess I'm just a mysterious bastard! But seriously, shit will go down if they cannot do the font. They are a good enough place so cross everything that is crossable for me and wish me luck!

Theme: Work Placement So I am finally getting used to work placement at the care home, after fity-six hours. I came in, I already knew what everyone had for breakfast as they have the same thing anyway. Granted I still had to ask them what they wanted. Although, I finished four people in just under a few seconds. I'm managing my time effectively and getting through it okay. However, there is a downfall of today. Typical. The nurse spoke to me like a child. It fucked me off so I just flat out told him "I'm not an idiot." Just because I am only eighteen and I'm doing a college placement, it does not give him the right to talk to me like shit. I am a confident person and he has no right to treat me like some door mat. Plus, the sooner you tell people they are pricks, the quicker they will (hopefully) stop because they will realise you’re a person not to be crossed. I don't care if you are a cleaner or one of England's top surgeons, respect is earnt, not ta...

Theme: Shitty Sundays There is never anything to blog about on a sunday. However, due to my promise of blogging daily, I have to come up with something. Also, I have one or two pictures of Christopher Mccandless I'd like to post, seeing as most (not all) of the picture's that I use here, are taken from the film. I'd like to be able to use some real one's of him. He turned 44 on the 12th February. I wonder what he would be like now. " What if I were smiling and running into your arms? Would you see then what I see now? " - Into The Wild

Theme: Religion I could never have faith in a religion that encourages hatred on thing's, for example, homosexuality. Even if they didn't encourage hatred, but just didn't believe it wasn't right, I still couldn't have faith in it. Why? I think that we should, as a society, be embracing other people's differences. So let's say for a second, that there is a chance that Allah could be the true god. Then would I really want to be involved in a religion that believes in the following quote (I have heard the follow quote many of times, I'm just unsure if it's from the Qur'an)" For homosexuality involves innumerable evil and harms, and the one to whom it is done would be better off being killed than having this done to him, because after that he will become so evil and so corrupt that there can be no hope of his being reformed, and all good is lost for him, and he will no longer feel any shame before Allah or before His creation." . If All...

Theme: Fantasy Vs Reality Do I fantasize/day dream a lot? Fuck yes! The perfect thing about fantasizing/day dreaming is that if YOU want something to happen, it will happen. In a day dream, literally, anything is possible. It's brilliant. If you're feeling low, your mind mind can take you wherever it is you wan't to go, and you control what happens. My imagination never goes to waste. Ever. The only downside is, is that some people take it to far, people such as infantilism's. When they start to actually live in their fantasy world (usually an adult role-playing as an infant, although this can be a sexual fetish, it's not always) " Fantasy love is much better than reality love. Never doing it is very exciting. The most exciting attractions are between two opposites that never meet. " - Andy Warhol

Theme: Miami Ink So I am watching Miami Ink and this lad came in wanting a tattoo of a tiger for a representation of his mum. This lad wanted it black and white and the tattooist was like "No, let me colour it in for you." At the end of the day, if it's not what the lad want's. There's different way's to word thing's without adding pressure. He could have said "Do you want any colour in it?" not "let me do it". It sound's so forceful. Also, during the tattoo, the tattooist turn round and with the EXACT quote he said: "There's a nice surprise in there that I added for you, I didn't ask, I just did it anyway" Oh my god. I would go absolutely insane. World's greatest tattooist's or not, I would be absolutely fuming. I mean what kind of tattooist does that sort of thing? Bleeding heck. I couldn't help but laugh.

Theme: Into The Wild's Downfall As you all know, 'Into The Wild' is one of my favourite films. However, it does have a downfall. A major, major downfall. It has kristen Stewart in it. Now that is just enough to ruin any movie. Funnily enough, just like Twilight, she also beg's for sex in this movie too! She get's turned down. Ha. I really can't stand her, especially her expressionless face. It's the same as it is in Twilight. There is just no expression's. Cheer up emo kid. I would post a picture of the scene where she get's knocked back, however, I don't want to infect my screen, or yours.

Theme: So Sophie, it's your day off. What do you plan to do today? I plan to do fuck all today. I woke up at 10am today, now here I am. Watching 'Into The Wild' and tapping away on my blogpspot and I am still in my pj's, and that is how I will remain for the rest of the day. I should be doing coursework but fuck it, I will do it on the weekend. I plan to read, watch ridiculously awesome movies, cry at ridiculously awesome movies and shop online. I can't help but wonder what they are doing at college though. However, I can only guess, they've been sent to the library, sent home or are sitting awkwardly with a cover teacher that doesn't even teach their subject. Funny if my teachers did turn up, but I wouldn't really miss anything to the point where I couldn't catch up. I couldn't imagine many people turning up in all fairness. Anyway, my day is going pretty well. So far.

Theme: Day off! So I went into college today to find out that seven members of staff in our department are off. So, we had cover teachers for both of our lessons that don't teach that lesson therefore, dont know what to do with us. I was going to wait around for three hours for my next lesson to start with another cover teacher. So my total stay at college this morning was twenty-eight mins. Also, I only have two teachers tomorrow and they have been off for two weeks. Seeing as its friday tomorrow I doubt they would be in. So I will not be attending tomorrow as i cant be bottherd to be told by a cover teacher to write down my name on a peice of paper and go library. Fuck that.

Theme: Group Therapy? There is this group that I used to attend to. It stopped recently due to christmas, and it start's again tomorrow. I feel ridiculously comfortable at this group knowing that no one from my outside world is going. I like the fact that I have made relationships with people there and I have done this on my own. There are very few place's that I feel comfortable, and good god it taken me along time for me to come out of my shell. So I know that if anyone from this world, went into the group, it would completely turn me upside down. The group is there for me to develop in a specific subject that I won't mention now, but I know that if people I know came to the group, all of my hard work of developing, I think it would be completely undone. I know it's really selfish of me. I just wouldn't be able to cope with it. It's like my second home. It's a chance for me to be around people, that have similar beliefs to me, and I can just be, me. I...

Theme: 18+ For Entering Supermarkets? Me & my mum went Iceland today. It was literally just after all the school kids have came out. For goodness sake, the kids where everywhere. Then you had all the mum's sqwarking after the kids. I really think you need to be 18+ to enter supermarkets. As kids just get in the way. Not to mention, I have dislike kids. I guess it's not the kids that wind me up, it's more the sqwarking mum's. Be a better parent and take control of your children.

Theme: Damn Dvd. After coming home from work placement, I thought to myself, I have to get my coursework done. It's a must. So, I walked through the door and I decided to ask my mum if I had any parcels, which is usually doubtful with how slow snail mail is. So yes, my Into The Wild DVD has turned up. Can you guess what I am doing instead of coursework? Bleeding heck. Don't get me wrong, I've tried. I'm stuck on these bloody care plans. Also, i all honesty, I couldn't give a crap with Nutrition work. Still. I might have half a screen taken up by pure DVD love and another half taken up my nutrition. See how that works for me. Wish me luck.

Theme: Relationships I truly think I am meant to be single. However, that's okay. I'm more than perfectly fine with that. Don't get me wrong, I believe in love, and I still have hope for me that there is something out there. However, if it turns out that there isn't, that's okay. I'll buy shit loads of hedgehogs, a rocking chair and a shotgun, so I can sit on my front porch as the creeper that I may I should be. I don't believe I have truly been in love with somebody before. I have and still do love/loved some people, but have never been in love. I think that you will know what love is like when it hits you, because I think it will be a huge mixture of emotions I haven't felt before. You will know it as soon as it hits you. It's cool beans if I'm to be forever alone. I can't cope in relationships. I need space and a lot of it. However, "love" might change that. I might go mental when I find that special human. But until then, I l...

Theme: Work Placement I was at placement today and a carer tried for a very long time to move a client. When someone came up to talk to this carer, I thought I'd give it ago. With one simple ask, he moved and I managed to bring this client to the table. Was anyone around to see my victory? Was there fuck....Oh well, I'm happy on the inside.

Theme: Lazyness Pretty damn lazy day today. Ah well, I'm at my happiest. I need to get some coursework done. I have to get started on some tomorrow. Otherwise, I will fall even more behind. I have placement tomorrow also, and I just can't be arsed with it anymore. I can't wait until I don't have to go back.I feel so far behind. However, I couldn't give a flying fuck how many calories are in noodles right now. Currently just in bed watching family guy. Anyway, I just had to blog, as I hadn't blogged today. So this is all I have to say. Ha.

Theme: Ooooh Bestfriends! Dan - We've been through some stuff together. It's nice to know we have came through the other side. You do make me laugh. Especially lately. Paedophiles should be extremely cautious of us. You are such a good listener and you don't half make me laugh. Don/Joey - (I'm writing you two together, as I love you both for the same reasons) I have literally told you both my life story. There is nothing I couldn't trust you with. You two are extremely loyal and honest people and that's a quality you can't get often now-a-days. You are both there for me so much and I don't think I can actually thank you enough for that. You have both been through so much and I look up to as my brother and sister. I know that you are always there when I need you. I am so very thankful for that, as you always manage to help others even when you are not in the most greatest of places your self. I think you both play a huge part in the person that I a...

Theme: Moulin Rouge Vs Romeo + Juliet I just finished watching both films. I didn't really cry at Romeo + Juliet. However, the tears was worse than a river when it came to Moulin Rouge. I think it's because I've never really been able to watch the Moulin Rouge in peace as everyone in the family hates it. I can't actually decide which film is more romantic. I think the language of Romeo + Juliet probably makes the film more romantic than it actually is. It's also a lot less possible. Where as Moulin Rouge, it seems more possible. A girl having an affair with a penniless writer behind her extremely rich mister's back. The worst, most upsetting part of the movie is just when she die's from Tuberculosis. (In the movie, they call in "consumption") Anyway, I love both films, but I think that Moulin Rouge touches me more. Satine: I don't need you anymore! All my life you made believe I was only worth what someone would pay for me! But Christian ...

Theme: Ooooh Friend! Part 2! Went cinema with Steve. Daniel Radcliff was in the film (The women in black). Although I am not a massive Harry Pothead fan, could I stop making Harry Pothead references? No. My dear. Also, there where some damn right annoying kid's there. Thankfully, Steve screamed at them to shut up. She got many thankful looks her way. One of them from me. Anyway, the film was okay, not as scary as I though. (Steve you wuss)

Theme: Ooooh Friend! Massive thank you to Mark who came to visit me today and let me borrow a book of his. I haven't seen him in years and it was really lovely to see him so we just sat there and talked. It's weird how much people can change so fast. It's nice to know people from your past. As I have a tendency to sort of ditch them all, as to be honest, I really can't be bothered with them. I'm glad he's in my present and there is definitely space for him in the future.

"Romeo: O, wilt thou leave me so unsatisfied? Juliet: What satisfaction canst thou have tonight? Romeo: The exchange of thy love's faithful vow for mine. Juliet: I gave thee mine before thou didst request it!"

Theme: Sob fest! Okay, so I rarely, rarely, rarely ever go to Aldi. However, when my mum took the car to ge cleaned, we pop into Aldi to time kill. I was looking through all the rather crap DVD'S and it was all the same. But I thought, I'd keep looking as you never know. The last DVD and only one there was Romeo & Juliet with Moulin Rouge. Oh happy days! It cost me £4.99, well cost my mum £4.99. Thanks mum! So right now I'm watching Romeo & Juliet. I'm overly chuffed with myself right now. Lucky sod, getting the last one. So right now, I have half my screen taken up by Romeo and Juliet, the other half taken up by microsoft word. I've never worked so fast in my life. It's a good coursework encourager! How much do you want to bet that there will be tears at the end of this? I usually hate love film's, there are very few that I can actually stand. So it's awesome to find my two favourite film's in one like box set. Nom Nom. " Romeo: ...

Theme: Ear aids, part two. I was granted the wish of being able to go to the doctors today. if you are of a nervous disposition please stop reading. The diagnosis: wax. Shit loads of wax. It's all pushing against my ear drum. As my ear drum is very sensitive, that's what's causing all the pain. So I'm having to use ear drops that will melt all the wax away. I've had this stuff before, and I love it! I love the fizzing sound it makes in your ear...The bad news is that I am not allowed to use my earphone's for a while which mean's I have to listen to the ridiculously loud loose women that happen to get on my bus every college morning.

Theme: Dyscalculia I have heard the quote "you need maths in order to survive" many of times. Especially from my maths teacher. I just want to take the time, to officially, prove him wrong. Many people, possibly myself, have something that's called Dyscalculia. So, is he stating that everyone who has Dyscalculia or just struggles with maths will die? Is he saying that, without maths, your heart will simply stop beating? No. It won't. The only thing that Dyscalculia will do, is limit your opportunities in life. Yeah, you will struggle when it come's to thing's such as shopping for say a family, but this is where online shopping can help. It will add up all the price for you, and if you go over your limit, you can simply take an item off your list. Even if you physically go to the store, just calculate everything online, make a list, and you know exactly what your spending. Of course there are other thing's in life that could be a problem such as calculat...

Theme: Ear Aids It literally feel's like Freddy vs Jason has just moved into my ear and are killing each other. It hurts a lot. I'm drugged up with painkillers and I have a hot water bottle shoved on my ear. Dying? I think so. It's my age, I'm getting old. Haha.

Theme: Valentines day Do I agree with it? Frankly, I don't really care. I do think it's a way for couples to be conned out of their money. So really, if I didn't get anything for valentine's day, I wouldn't really be distraught. You should show love to your partner every day regardless. I think if you need one "special" day to show love to your partner - then I think that's when you have problems in your relationship. Don't get me wrong, I think it's perfectly acceptable to say "happy valentines day" to your partner, but spending all that money on junk, neh. You should treat your partner every now and again, not wait for a certain day to express your love. However, I do love roses

Theme: Boredom. Today literally nothing is happening. I wouldn't be surprised if this is my only blog entry for today as nothing is happening. I'm just generally blogging as I've made a commitment to myself to blog everyday. It's only 4:30 so I am hoping something interesting will happen at least later on. Skins is on tonight so I might write up my feedback on that episode.

Theme: Hedgehog love Lately my hedgehog has been behaving himself a lot more, since I moved things around in his cage to stop him from digging to get under his newspaper. In a way I think pet's (including my hedgehog) can sense what you're feeling. I'm feeling incredibly lonely tonight and when I went to pick him up for a daily cuddle, he must of sensed it, as every time I am unhappy he will just crawl up to the side of my next and just fall asleep on my shoulder with his wet nose poking behind my ear. I find it comforting. It's like he's hugging me and giving me that up lift I need. Where would I be without you hedgie? I love you.

Theme: It's my favourite quote from the book/movie! No, clearly it isn't. Otherwise you would know that the quote doesn't contain the word "IS" in it. Dumbass. For all those who have no idea what I am talking about, I am discussing the quote from the into the wild book and film. The correct quote is: " Happiness only real when shared " however, I am seeing endless tattoo's saying " Happiness IS only real when shared". Although in my last blog I stated that people should keep their noses out of other people's bad tattoo's as it may be personal, I can't help but cringe deeply when I see an incorrect quoting. It's like they've just seen it on the internet and was like "nawh, that's nice, tattoo parlour for me it is!" Infact, I haven't seen very few tattoos that has got it right. Can people not read? Good grief.

Theme: Shit Tattoo's Granted if you colour your whole arm in black, then chances are, it's a shit tattoo. Otherwise, no one has the right to tell other's if they think that person's tattoo is shit or not. They didn't get it for you. A tattoo can be a very deep and emotional thing and it's not fair to have someone rip that. Especially if someone has gotten a tattoo for someone who has past. Sure, there are some really just flat out awful tattoo's out their that makes you think "did you do that yourself?!" but at the end of the day, it's not our body. If that person like's it and is happy with the work, then let it be.

Theme: Body modification regrets What I've Had/Got: - Two Tattoos - Frowny piercing - Tongue web piercing - Wrist piercing - Scaffold piercing - Two lobe piercing's (one stretched) Do I regret any of them? I can give the answer of yes and no. I don't regret my wrist piercing or tattoo's at all. I loved my wrist piercing and I was super pissy to see it go. My tattoo's, no regret without a doubt. If I knew I was going to swallow my tongue web piercing and frowny piercing, I would of never of had them done. However, I loved them too! Its just that I swallowed £60 worth of piercings... However, there are days when I don't necessarily regret my ear stretching, there are just days when I wish it wasn't there. I think this may be down to the smell and the paranoia that the back will pop off in my sleep. I don't regret not being able to wear earrings ever again. I wish I taken the stretching process slower, as there is a slight tare in my ear that sto...

Theme: University As some people know I was rejected from university. I only applied for one university as there are only two universities in England that do my course which is forensic anthropology. The university I didn't apply for was just to far away. Anyway, at first I was absolutely distraught about not being accepted. You only needed two GCSE'S (one of them being maths, which I haven't got). I felt stupid that I hadn't got in. Like no matter what I did, I wouldn't ever be enough. I hated it even more that the teacher's at college where telling me "I had it in the bag". I had all my hopes built up on it, it's all I've wanted for years on end. When people at college ask if I am going to university, I just say that I haven't heard back from them yet as I just feel to embarrassed to admit that I have failed myself. Although some people at college haven't got into university also, I still feel like it's all my fault. I hate it ...

Theme: Is botox right? I don't believe in having botox. However, I am not solely against other people having it, it just isn't for me. This is because I wouldn't want my partner to grow older and me, get younger. I want to grow old with my partner, and do it together. I can understand why it can lift someone's confidence. I wouldn't want my partner to get it either. I'd feel a little bit like a paedophile.

Theme: Back Into The Wild Verdict I received the book yesterday, and I finished the book, yesterday. It was such a good read and I loved seeing all the unseen pictures that told his story. Definitely a recommended read. I won’t lie, it was quite sad that even when he was dying from starvation, his last ever picture was him holding his goodbye note, and smiling whilst doing it. The book is now resting on my shelf. If anyone touches it, fingers will be snapped off, and they will be fed to the bears. Mmm ‘kay?

Theme: Let the slothing commence! First day of my half term. Although I only go into college three times a week, it feel’s bloody brilliant to not be there. It’s great that there’s not so much drama there now, but I just can’t be bothered with it. Last day was a complete waste of time. I just want to give a mention to Steve for her math’s exam and hope she gets the grade she want’s!

Theme: Christopher Mccandless Update I am now on page 168 out o 241. I absolutely adore the book. It's nice to be able to see his adventures as if it is though through his eyes. As before with the "Into The Wild" book, you could only imagine. Now I get to see all his letters and postcards and all his picture's that he took. I'm not sure if he was really good at photography, or if the pictures he was taking was just generally beautiful. I can totally see why he headed out there. It's so nice to read about all the people he met along the way and the impact he had on them. " not all those who wonder, are lost " - John Ronald Reuel Toliken

Theme: Christopher Mccandless 31, 30, 29, 28, 27, 26, 25, 24, 23, 22, 21, 20, 19, 18, 17, 16, 15, 14, 13, 12, 11, 10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1, 0! I just got my Mccandless book, so this is now my last blog...ever. Well, until I have finished reading the book of course. My phone is switched off, facebook is logged out and after posting this I will surley completley turn off my computer. I may even be a bit of a rebel and take the house phone of the hook. There will be tears. I think once I've finished I'll have to kick a book of my bookshelf, so then the book has it's place and will be un-damaged. Anyway, I'm off for a read/tear fest! See you again for my next blog discussing the book. :)

Theme: Let It Snow It's snowing heavily at the moment. If it continues into tomorrow to the point where there is no college. I just know that someone is watching over me and that someone is on my side ♥ How I just cannot be arsed for the bullshit of what is meant to be nutrition tomorrow... 32 days until book arrives

Theme: Crystals! I now have 100+ crystals. I would count them, but I just can't be arsed. I really need to start using them again. I carry a rose quartz and an amethyst on me all the time, but I need to start using my others. Other wise I become more of a collector then a healer. ( Click here to see my collection) 32 days until book arrives

Theme: Work Bitches When I was working a few days ago, the person I was working with was talking to me about thing's and all of a sudden I must have got boring or something - as halfway through a conversation she decided to turn the radio up. Now the radio was so loud that even I couldn't hear myself talk. I mean, at first I thought there was something on the radio that she needed to listen to. When I listened to it, the radio was just talking shit and was on adverts! Bare rude. Like the picture picture say's, zero fuck's were given that day. Just like every other day. I just thought that blogspot deserves some sort of gossip out of my oh so boring life. So yes blogspot, this is the best I can do for you. 33 days until book arrives

Theme: Teachers A teacher last week asked me and my friend if we wanted our lesson's changing around for her. We both said no. Definite no. You can only guess what she's done. I had such a lovely lay in this morning knowing I hadn't got to be in until eleven. But that was a once in a lifetime thing. Now she's changed it, I won't be getting my well needed lay in on a wednesday. It doesn't help that I will be kick starting my college week with an extremely shitty lesson. What a brilliant way to cheer us all up. So if a teacher asks you if something is a good idea, try saying yes. Then maybe they won't do it. 33 days until book arrives

Theme: MY BOOK'S COME! Lol jk. However, the other book I ordered came today. The physical copy of "Into The Wild". I've bubble wrapped it and put it in my mum's room. I brought it myself for my birthday and my mum just owes me the money. If my mum damages it when wrapping, I will be fairly schizophrenic. Then I will have to order another hardback copy. Yes, I went all out and brought an expensive hardback. Although, the most expensive version on there is like £222. Don't get me wrong, I love the book. Just not that much. Ha. 33 days until book arrives

Theme: Tattoo Today I went back to the tattoo shop (the one with hepatitis) and told them about another idea. Guess what they said? They said it was impossible. Just like my other tattoo! I just think they are being lazy. I also hinted, really well, that all I want to do is see the quote on my back so I know what it look's like. So the tattooist was like "yeah, yeah, yeah sure." All he did was print me out a picture of the quote I wanted, but in a different font. Then he said I couldn't even keep it as it's their font. Okay dokey. So later on that day I visited another tattoo shop, my friend came with me just so she could laugh at me and how crap the store is. Ha. Anyway, they said that my idea is possible. They where really friendly people and they are drawing it up for me. I am going next wednesday so they can put the stencil on my body so I can see what it looks like. I'm just grateful they didn't do what the other shop did. Printing me out a new fon...

Theme: Job I went passed this care home today. When I think of care home’s I think of the elderly. So when my mum forced me inside to ask for a job, I was highly surprised that it is a care home for veterans at war that suffer with post-traumatic stress disorder and drug/alcohol abuse. Do I want to work there? Fuck yes! However, they said they are not taking on any staff as they only have one resident at the moment. No point having 50 carers and one resident. So reception person told me to call up again in April, see if thing’s have picked up. Which I will do. 34 days until book arrives

Theme: Spirit Paper = Shit I got my spirit paper today. Did the fucking thing work? No. I was so pissed off. I’m glad I only spent like 99p on it. So my idea for tomorrow is to go into town at normal time, seeing as college doesn’t start till later, I’m going to pop into the tattooist that has a swarming virus of Hepatitis and get them to draw it on me. Well, I’m going to beg. Maybe shed a tear if they say “no.” I hate my visitation skills when I plan a tattoo. My mind can be such a dick. 34 days until book arrives

“Some women choose to follow men, & some women choose to follow their dreams. If you're wondering which way to go, remember that your career will never wake up & tell you that it doesn't love you anymore.” - Lady GaGa  ♥

Theme: Hedgehog problems I'm absolutely shattered from not being able to sleep properly. I have no idea what is wrong with my hedgehog, but I just know what he's doing, he's doing it to annoy me. Basically, he has a nice, warm, comfy bed. That he has always managed to sleep in. That he was difficult to pry him away from. But now, the numpty has found a new home. One that creates lot's of noise and a huge catastrophe. He's decided to dig up his news's paper and sleep under there. Which whilst he is digging up his news's paper, he does it right at the side of his water bowl. So you can only guess what happens to all his water. I have to wake up 6-7 time's a night to stop him from doing it, and due to the water spill I have to clean his cage at like 3am. I've been doing this for about two months now. Tonight's the night I'm going to leave him to his own devices, he does what he does, the rescue service will do their duty in the morning. 35 d...

Theme: Death Penalty & Animal Testing I come from England, a place where the death penalty doesn't exist. Although I am all for the death penalty, I think that criminals can be used in more useful ways. Many innocent animals go through product testing each and everyday. Why should innocent lives go though things like this? I think that paedophiles and murders should do something useful for society for once, or at least be made to. They should be used for testing. Only in the cases of hard evidence mind, want to avoid sending down innocence. If there isn't hard evidence then jail it is. This way, there will be less over crowding in prisons and maybe the tax payer won't have to pay so much. Also, prisons shouldn't get thing's such as TV's. A lot of poor families can't get these luxories and every year a family will have to tell their children there will be no presents again these year. Despite this, thing's such as TV's, Storybooks Dad's pro...

Theme: Into The Wild & Tattoo I've just ordered the Into The Wild book & DVD. That's a few more thing's of my wish list. All I want now really is the Devils Own gift voucher. Seeing as I can't have the tattoo I initially wanted I've been cropping up with new idea's. Whilst on his travel's Mccandless would make picture's on his belt ( See here ) So I've decided to take something from that. This way it is something that he has designed. I can't decide on the moose or the eagle. I'm still going to have the words "beautiful blueberries" My heart is set on that one. I just wanted to add some sort of imagery. I have no idea what it's going to look like, so I guess I'm going to have to take it upon myself to draw it. Oh dear. My mum hasn't even said yes to the tattoo. Initially that's all she kept saying and then I asked so much she didn't say anything, which is usually a 'yes' in my books. 36 days u...

Theme: Feminism. I'm not a feminist. However, I do think that women are sometime's viewed as "less" then a man is. The main reason I am not a feminist is because of thing's such as domestic violence. If I say domestic violence to most people, they would think of a male beating a female. However, in some cases it is female beating male. I think it would also be harder for male's to talk about as it is less common. There are many supportive groups for females who have been through domestic violence, but there are few for males. I also feel that it is harder for males to express their emotions. Mainly because in today's society you have to live up to this stereotype of being a tough guy. Your a wuss if you express your emotions. When it come's down to it, we are all human and we all have the right to express how we feel. Although depression is more common in females, it's more common for the male to commit suicide. It is also more likely for men to...

Theme: Scouts Vs Brownies I remember being a Brownies member and all we used to do was skip around this circle mat on the floor or make tea for old people. Where as boy scouts they get to learn more life skills and just damn right awesome things. They get to go out camping and we make tea for old people. They got to learn how to fix thing's and we got to make tea for old people. The scouts got to do rock climbing, guess what we did? Make tea for old people! It's bloody ridicules it is! Not only that, some of the thing's that the scouts did are the sort of things that every human need's in today's society. Okay, so you might not need the rock climbing, but I can't fix anything electrical. I think women should have an equal opportunity to learn these simple life skills. Don't get me wrong, I'm not feminist, I'm just a jealous bint because I'd love to have been more active in my childhood. 37 days until book arrives

Theme: Ooooh Friend! I just want to mention that my friend has been found and she is safe. Anyway, I met my lovely friend Lisa for a drink today. Bloody lovely. She's lent me a few books related to wicca. I'm grateful with how much she's helped me. I think I'm going to start making my own thing's with herb's such as tea's, face packs, lip balms. Whatever it is I can cook up really. Now, with everything I make, I'm going to need to test to see if it's okay the first time I've made it. I nominate Steve Mepham as my lab rat. Cheer's Steve. 37 days until book arrives

Theme: Roberta Hunt One of my friends went missing yesterday around 1pm. She was seen getting into a car with two men. She still hasn't been found and the police can't do anything until 48 hours have passed. It was horrible having her step dad call me up in tears. I can't imagine what the family are going through. I hope she is safe. My prayers are with her and her family. I hope she returns home safe. I miss her. I was meant to be doing a project with her for her college. I really do hope she's okay. Im just trying to be as supportive of her family as possible.

Theme: Countdown Till Loss Of Sanity I think in reality, this is more of a countdown until I officially loose my sanity. I cannot wait 38 days for such bliss! At least now that I can see the countdown, I can see the day's slowly tick away so that my book is getting closer and closer to me each and everyday.

Theme: "Wulers" Got nothing to blog about today really, but I just don't want to go from blogging 4-6 blogs a day, to none. Today's lesson was spent learning that my friend cannot pronounce 'rulers'. I also learnt, that after slaving away on a placement, I don't have to go anymore! College has screwed up and there finally fixing there mistakes. It mean's I will finally have my monday's free, which will be a bliss. I'm starting to enjoy college a lot more now that I simply do not care. I feel less pressure. Although, I'm still not over the university rejection and I'm shit scared for my future, college is just so, so much better. Also, there's a lot less drama happening.

Theme: Wish List/Shopping List Into The Wild By Jon Krakauer (Hardback, 2007 Edition) Into The Wild By Jon Krakauer (Hardback, 1997 Edition) Into The Wild Soundtrack Into The Wild DVD Devils Own Gift Voucher, For Into The Wild Tattoo Offering Bowl

Theme: Imbolc Some people celebrate Imbolc on the 1st Feb where other's on the 2nd. This blog is basically what Imbolc mean's to me . To me imbolc (in a nutshell) is this "the child God continues to mature, as can be witnessed in the lengthening days, and celebrations frequently centre around light. The Crone Goddess of Winter makes way for the Maiden, who has recovered from childbirth and prepares the earth to begin its growth cycle once more." So, Merry Imbolc & Blessed Be!

Theme: Royal Snail (Again) My bloody kindle cover still hasn't come. Three day's late. What are they playing at? All I want is a nice soft purple cover to hug my kindle. If my Mccandless book is even a second late, letters will be written, phone call's will be made! Heck, I'll even go to the sorting office if I have to. I've told Steve that when it come's I'm having a day of college. It's true. My phone will be off, my computer off, and I might even be a cheeky sod and take the phone off the hook. I'll obviously take the batteries out of the fire alarm too, I don't want to run the risk of being distracted. I intend to sit up in the attic so I can't hear the door bell ring. You watch, it will arrive on the Saturday and my mum will wan't me to clean the house. I will probably go insane and take cover down my local park. Luckily I think there going away around the estimated arrival date which is the 12th March. Just checked amazon, and it ...

Theme: Mantits & Shit Tattoo's This blog is mainly for Steve. We was in college earlier today, skiving a lesson, as usual. We was sitting in the canteen and the person on the table next to us revealed his rather shit and flaky tattoos. One tattoo consisted of a silhouette of a man, emanating some sort of substance. His other tattoo was as if a child has gone over the top with a marker pen and covered him in black. As the tattoo was flaky all his scabs was all over the cafeteria table. That should add extra flavour to my sandwich.... Also, the college decided to put on some music for us. A guy was singing about how he's mantits and the ocean. Productive day today really. So today was pretty overall hilarious. Did you know that 9/10 people that suffer with parkinson's, have parkinson's?