Ramblings Of A Rambler

Theme: Well, merry fucking Easter to me! I finally, finally found it! Emile Hirsch was a main character in the film 'twice born'. It was filmed and shown around last year. Well could I fucking find it anywhere? No. No I bloody well couldn't. I literally trolled the internet everyday just to find it. Well after doing my daily troll today, there we're ton's of links for the film and I finally got to watch it! It was actually really good, it was different and better to what I was expecting. Bravo Emile Hirsch, you sexy beast, bravo.

Theme: Ill. I haven't done much today, just the usual so and so. I feel dead ill though, massive headache and I feel sick, although I'm not travel sick, it feel's like I am travel sick and that I've been round the world in a old crappy car. I know it will all pass though, do you know when you feel ill, but you know it's nothing a bit of sleep can't fix?

Theme: Backdating, Part 2. Just a usual Friday to be honest, gym, cleaning and house. I've been really bad this week when it come's to my eating. I feel like I'm loosing control a bit and I need to be back in the driving seat. I'm not doing my full exercise routine and I've started to just eat crap. The good thing is, is that I'm going to get my ass in gear Monday and do my full exercise plan and start swimming again. I miss swimming so damn much. I can't even. I'm going to be knackered I know it, but I need to do this for myself.

Theme: Backdating! Bugger me, I'm four days behind on posts. My bad. I went to go see "Jack the giant slayer" with Steve, which was actually pretty good considering it has a massive slating in the newspaper's. Id certainly go see it again. Other then that we both mooched around town for a bit to shop. Alton Tower's is on Tuesday which I am blood looking forward to. I'm crossing finger's it's not going to be shitty weather. I'm also shitting it as well. I'll be screaming my head off. I'm gonna need a mute button. But I'm still bloody excited!

Theme: Fuck my life. I was going through my wiccan books today, and I was thinking about all the thing's that I could do if I had the space. Then I figured I would flat hunt, no reason why. I guess my curiosity got to me. Just like all the other time's I've hunted. I think about my future, get over excited and end up looking for something that's not going to happen for a long, long time, simply because I haven't got the job that pay's enough. Hopefully when I get a job in the NHS, that's when I can move out. Or get a job that's at least something equivalent in wage. I'll be honest, I won't be getting very far on a pizza hut wage. Anyway, whilst I was hunting I noticed that most places are £500-£600 per month for a three bedroom place, which really isn't bad. Then I came across this place, and fuck me, it's perfect. It's only eighteen minute's (walking wise) away from Glenfield hospital and only 59 minutes away  (walking

Theme: Billy Elliot! I've booked some ticket's with my mum to go see Billy Elliot in September down London. I am so damn excited. I have been moaning to go see that show in theatre for bloody long. I cannot wait. A lot of thing's are happening this month which is just awesome. Going Alton Towers in seven days and my job induction is on the 8th. Yay. Other then that, nothing has happened today. Just the usual work stuff.

Theme: Aunt Irma Well, better late then never. By late I mean 15 days late. As long as she is visiting before Alton Towers. I swear, I'll kill if I am ill on the day of the trip. It didn't hurt as much as it used to, I assume that's down to exercise, but it's still pretty damn painful. I've got so much weight to loose before I can be considered for the damn pill to take the pain away.

Theme: George. Remember that big bear, creepy stalker I had? Yeah? Well he came back. I logged onto whatsapp, which is a rare occasion, and guess what was waiting for me? A photograph of himself. Nothing rude, but it was just there. Like I actually gave a fuck. I literally just that there like "....". Anyway, I had to message him back, and I figured I'd be all nice and polite as being a cunt won't get me anywhere. I just said congratulations on the weight loss  I'm doing well also, hoping everything else is good. Then he replied nicely calling me "babe". No no no no no! That is not good. We're not friend's. We're not together, therefore, does not have permission to address me as that. I asked him politely that to not approach me again, as I don't want to talk. He apologised and straight after complimented me on my "sexy body". I swear to god, I just want to slap the shit out of this bitch and his slut ways. He just kept tal

Theme: Tattoo Ashes I saw a programme age's ago a couple that had there babies ashes mixed in with there ink, and then tattoo'd on them. I don't give a flying fuck what people think. I think it's a good idea. I completely disagree with funeral's. So I think a good way to remember them, to have them literally with you. When my little hedgehog die's, he's only two, so he has plenty of years ahead of him yet, but, when he does go, I don't want to bury him. What I really want to do is get an ink pad and put his feet on it, and then on some paper. Like what they do with babies. Just to keep as a memory. His feet will be so tiny and I know for sure the bugger won't stay still. Worth a shot though. I'd love to get that tattoo'd on me, but I know it will be far too small to do it, but if not I'd really like to get this , mixed with his ashes. 

Theme: Jodie Marsh  I saw Jodie Marsh in the TV magazine. She actually does look very pretty. Granted when she isn't on a photo shoot her nose doesn't look the best, but I wouldn't dismiss her for that. When you compare her to a model like Katie Price, I can easily choose which one is a better person. Sure, Katie Price write's good books, but she doesn't actually do anything to help other people. She just get's married. A lot, and has camera's follow her about so she can make a show about herself. Which is insanely boring. Where as Jodie Marsh is a lot more prettier, she has pretty feature's where as Katie Price doesn't, she's actually fairly plain. Jodie Marsh does an awful lot to help people. When she was younger she was badly bullied and because of this she tries to change the way school's run, to crack down on bullying. She's doing a new show on April 5th which I will be watching! I watched her last show that was about bullying and

Theme: My Chemical Romance. I really wasn't expecting to be waking up to the new's that my chemical romance had split. I really wasn't much of a fan of them either so I'm not exactly upset about the whole thing. It's just that, they are such a huge band and have been together for such a damn long time. I only liked a few of there songs, the one's that are over popularised, but I still thought they were worth a mention. They have such a huge fan base so I dread to think of the amount of people that are upset right now. 2001 - 2013.

Theme: Burn baby burn! I burnt the most I have ever burnt today. A total of 635 calories. I did everything that was in my exercise plan today for the first time. On other day's I usually leave a machine out or cut time down, but today I completely went for it. I am pretty damn chuffed with myself I'm not going to lie. Doing the whole plan wasn't as hard as I thought. I thought it would completely kill me but it really wasn't too bad. My t-shirt was absolutely soaked, I'm going to aim to burn 600+ calories every time now. Go me. Only took me 1hour 40min's.

Theme:  Usual Just the usual crap today. I went to the job centre, my next date to go is on the 4th April, that will be the last time I ever have to go there, and it's my sign off date. Thank god. I cannot be doing with job centre drama any more. It also mean's I can avoid going every week and doing stupid volunteer work which disrupts everything. Also! They won't be pushing me to take stupid course's that will amount to nothing.

Theme: Bitch, what the hell is wrong with you? I just seen this girl. On youtube. Eating her own used tampon. Really bitch, really? She did it so she can get famous on twitter and such. Right, so she ate her own tampon, now she's famous on twitter, now what? At the end of the day people that follow you on twitter, chance's are they couldn't give a flying fuck about you. Having 987437832789238732789482393284298 follower's on twitter will not get you anywhere in life. It will not help you get the job you want, the house you want ect. It just means you have that many followers and that's it, they aren't your friend's. It's not a reason for your parent's to be proud. If I ever had a daughter, and I found out she did that, I would have no idea what I'd do. I'd lock the disgusting bitch up in the attic. There was also a guy on youtube that ate his own shit. Well after seeing the first clip I couldn't stomach the second. Shit boy is also f

Theme: -Two Pounds. I went on the gym scales today as I haven't been swimming in a long time due to my hair and tattoo and I've also changed my gym plan, to make it harder. I honestly thought I gained. I had to get checked to take my mind off it. I've lost two pounds! Granted it took me three week's to loose it but there are so many reason's why it has took me that long to loose it, such as the reason's mentioned above, but also muscle! Muscle way's a fucking ton. I am doing so much weight's right now, I'm really cranking them up. So I'm not in tear's about it. I'm sort of neutral. An inner smile so to speak. From the beginning I said the number on the scale's will never bother me because I'm loosing bloody inches, where the scale say's I'm not loosing a lot at this moment in time. The instructor said it will pick back up soon, so it's all cool beans.

Theme: Boxfit? BOXDEATH! I am so damn embarrassed about today. I really, really am. I'm fully ashamed and disgusted with myself. I am never going back to boxfit. Ever. I arrived there and everyone was with someone. It was just me that was on my own. There was about thirty of us there. Everyone else was also stupidly thin and healthy. Like the perfect bmi, the perfect heigh, the perfect fucking everything. Then there was me. An overweight lump that struggles walking up a fucking hill. The instructor made us do a warm up, which was to walk around this massive hall, three laps, then he made us run three laps round this hall. Well that had me done, didn't it? I think even Dr.House would have had the Defibrillator ready and charged. My heart felt horrible, it clearly wasn't used to it. This is when everything got really embarrassing. The instructor came up to me and told me that it's okay to walk. I was the only one walking. Out of a group of thirty. Then we started doi

Theme: Thank fuck for that! I spent like two hours today hunting for my damn earphones. No earphones, no gym. If I don't have my earphones I have nothing to take my mind off the work I'm doing. After giving up and then emptying the washing machine guess where they were? I've never done that before. I've never put my things in the washing machine. I plugged them into my iPhone and well fuck me they work! The water hasn't even touched them. They work exactly as they did before. They are just cleaner, as grows as this sounds there was some wax inside of the earphone itself. Wax be gone! So that's my excitement of today. Otherwise, I've just sat around watching house. I completed my walking dead game and that's about it. I'm looking forward to tomorrow as tomorrow I'm doing shit loads! Excite!

Theme: Eh. I had a really good day at gym today, but I'm feeling a little lonely tonight. Everything just seems so quiet and I'm feeling a bit lost. I'm dreading tomorrow, Sundays are my most depressed days. Aunt Irma is six days late, maybe I'm pregnant? Lol joke. I think it's because of the exercise I'm doing, I wouldn't be surprised if she doesn't visit at all this month. Maybe I'm feeling down because she hasn't come? Y'know, hormones and what not. I'm no Gregory House so I don't know. I just feel lonely tonight.

Theme: Gym! I had my gym review today. I asked them to make it harder, and harder they made it. What I usually do at the gym is: 15 minutes of treadmill, 15 minutes on cross trainer, chest press, seated press and shoulder press. I'd be lying if I said I didn't hurt, because I cane from the new review, yeah it hurts, but I had so much fun doing it so I am so happy with the update. Now I'm doing: 25 minutes on treadmill - harder and faster level 15 minutes on cross-trainer 15 minutes on bike 5 minutes on climber 1000 meters on rower Hip Abductor (Weights) 60kg Another hip abductor (weights) 60kg Squats with ball Boxing (only on Mondays)

Theme: Alton Towers Alton Towers has been booked for the 2nd April. God damn am I excited. Obviously I am off on my adventure's with Shaun. This is on my bucket list and I get to cross it off. My god, I will be counting down the days until the second of April. As far as plan's go Shaun will be sleeping at mine and adventure's start 9am sharp. This is going to be bloody brilliant. Can't cope with excitement.

Theme: Intelligence I got the job! I actually got the pizza hut job. Like, da fuq ? I start on the 8th April. I'm excited, yet not. I don't know I can't tell. I'm finally an employed member of society. I also get to keep my caring job. Which is a plus. The only down fall of everything, I no longer get pocket money and I only earn £4.98 from it. I also only get to work 16 hours a week. But, I do get to keep going to the gym, so yay!

Theme: Foundation I am in an intensely hyper mood because of the blog's above. I can't even. I just wanted to mention that every time I put my foundation on, I see the below gif play over and over. I can also hear the music. Hakuna Matata baby.

Theme: How does one look like this? Emile Hirsch uploaded the below picture on his instagram. His caption was " Sick, but not out of the fight here in Hoplywood! Thanks again for all the bday wishes, helpin put me on the mend :) " How the fuck does someone look that good when they are sick? What the actual fuck? I dread to think what he look's like when he's dying, Christ. I'm sorry, but when I am ill I look someone like this . Other then stalking him, I've not done a lot today, just been watching a stupid amount of house. Also, I've decided to join box fit at the gym near me. I'm so damn excited. It's going to start on Monday.

Theme: Pizza Hut I went to my pizza hut interview today. Yeah, I'm never going to anything the job centre put on ever again. There was about thirty of us there, only four of us bothered to dress up smartly for the interview. Went it came down to my interview I was asked if I worked well in a group and that was it. Sent home. One measly question that they could have asked me over the phone. I am meant to find out tomorrow if I have the job or not, in all honesty, I don't think I have. At least if I do get it, I can still keep my caring job. Before I went to my interview though, I met up with a friend Mark who I got to potter around town with for a bit. Lovely to see him, cheer's Mark!

Theme: New Piercing!-ish I went back to devils own today to get my piercing looked at as it was a bit wonky, due to my anatomy no matter what you do it will always be wonky. But she said she can try and re-pierce it for me and see what she can do. When she tried to do it the metal clamp wouldn't clamp down on the place it was meant to, so she had to try something else, but before she did it, she warned me how painful it could be. She seemed a bit hesitant to do it due to pain. Thank fuck she remembered the use of numbing spray last minute. She sprayed up, re-pierced and I didn't feel a thing. Actually the spray made everything really cold and I was almost giggling at the feel of it. It's still a bit wonky but I prefer it the way it is now, I've got to go back in a week to get a smaller bar as that could make it look straighter. So yay. However, as 'House Of David's' decided to cut my Christina piercing down to pretty much nothing, I got 'Devils Own&

Theme: He...He acknowledged me. Remember this blog entry ? Yeah will, he happened again ♥ and I can barley contain myself. That's two likes. He's aware of my very existence. Well Mr.Hirsch, have yourself a merry merry birthday from me, you beast you. You are now officially eight year's older than me....I'm sure I can make exceptions. After all, you are my straight exception.

Theme: Memory is MIA. My memory is so missing in action today. That's why backdating can be such a cunt. 

Theme: Worry dolls, results. I wouldn't necessarily say they work, but they have the potential too, because of the placebo effect. I am neither for or against them. I didn't wake up less worried about my problems then I did as when I fell asleep. However, I guess I would use them in the future because it's a focus point to stress to. I just don't need dolls to do it too, you can stress to anything if it helps. If I ever had kids, I know that I'd give them my kid's because it's like a cutesy way of helping them get to sleep. 

Theme: Placebo Effect? As I had to pop into town today for this Job centre crap, I decided to go back to this crystal stall that's set up in the market that I visited yesterday with Shaun. A few months back the owner of the stall suggested that I get these, worry dolls. I didn't get them because I am very sceptical about them, and that's coming from me. Someone who in my brother's words "worships crystals." However, a few months after and I'm stressing. I'm not the most stressed I've ever been and I'm still functioning but I'm stressed enough to struggle to fall asleep. Although I've brought them I'm still sceptical. But in another way, they do have the power to work. But only in a placebo effect way. If you believe something works, and you put your faith into it, then by all means, it should. Another reason why they can work is because it's giving you a focus point to vomit your feeling's to, and everyone know's I&

Theme: Pizza Hut Went to the job Centre today to do some more bullshit. They where just presenting to us different job opportunities. There was about five stalls there, so only five job opportunities. I can only do one, which is Pizza Hut. I've bagged myself an interview anyway. I'm kind of hoping to get this job. My interview is on a Wednesday at 2:15 so wish me luck. If I get it, it's so close to my house and its experience...and a wage. However, it would have been easier for the job Centre to just call me up and tell me I have an interview rather then me do an hours journey there and back for them to just say that. I we t there all dressed up in my interview gear. I'm not lying when I say I was the only one that made an effort. One girl asked if she could leave to go get some breakfast. Good lord.

Theme: Piercing I Went to get my Christina piercing clipped down today. I went to 'House of David's'. They seem like nice enough people but I'd never go to them again. They seem to lack that intelligence that is needed to be a piercer. Even basic intelligence. There was a man doing everything for me. Which in itself is unfair on the client as they had a female piercist there. At Devils Own you get given a choice if I want a male piercer or a female piercer. Anyway, I got taken into this room with the male piercer and the female piercer came along. Why the female piercer didn't just do it ill never know. She was fully trained. But they both stood there watching me. Getting changed. Then they started bitching about other parlours. After getting up on the chair for him to clip it the women was like "clip it down so its as tight as possible". Umm, no thanks. Then I got him to check my VCH and he said it wasn't straight, it needs to be completely tak

Theme: Hansel & Gretel. Went out with my friend Shaun today as part of like my birthday thing. Had a pretty damn awesome time. We just went shopping, cinema and grabbed a Chinese. I thought cinema was pretty good. However, Shaun was unsure. The romance that was in it was unnecessary, and I know Shaun will definitely agree. Anyway, massive thank you to Shaun for the present's, card and coming with me. Whilst we we're in town we both brought some cannabis lollies. Never again. It was kind of like eating leaves. Shaun had to throw her's away. I don't blame her. Yuck. Well, you don't know unless you try! The Chinese we went to was also nice. I didn't eat a lot of it. I can't seem to be eating a lot lately. Maybe it's because of the exercise and dieting I'm doing. Stomach shrinking? But it was nice, go back there again I think! Thanks again to Shaun. :) After the whole George *beast* thing I kind of needed a break, and it was a good break at that.

Theme: Sorry/Not Sorry Yesterday I posted a gif of House. That won't be my last. I've found shit loads of Gregory house gifs. I love my gifs as it is so yeah. Prepare for a house spam on the next few entries. To break you into this I've decided to give all my readers a present. Here, have a gif basket:  

Theme: Snitchin' Time I ended up reporting the bare rapist to the gym. I won't lie it didn't go so well. I ended up talking to the one gym instructor that I didn't want to talk to. He's a lovely instructor don't get me wrong, but there's nicer. I've completely fell in love with this one instructor because he can talk a mile a minute and not bore you. Anyway, back on topic, I told the instructor about the pool incident and how the beast randomly expected sex and has been hassling me. I was kind of expecting to go into a private room, as the weighing room, which is private, was less then a cm away. In fact we were talking outside of it. In the hallway. The only reaction the instructor had after it was "oh okay". He wanted me to show him a photo of the bear, the only photo I have is this semi-naked one of him that he sent me (which I sent my friends to make them laugh). It looked like it made the instructor giggle a bit also. But I felt so shoo

Theme: Cunt. Remember that hairy rapist bare I've talked about every now and again? Yeah, he still likes me. It would be a bloody understatement if I said how many time's I told him I'm a lesbian. I've told him literately every time we spoke. We organised to go out together *as friend's to catch a movie*. We fully organised the time's ect tonight, and he thought it was a date. I informed him AGAIN *just to be mega clear* that we're just friend's. He went postal. Then he started asking for sex, saying that 'cos we're friend's it's okay. I refused. Now he want's me to stay away from the gym. I don't know what to do. Especially if he turn's it round on me that I've been harassing him (and I haven't). 

Theme: Bastards! Someone outbid me in the house DVDS. It was way out my price range. I'm going to have to keep my brothers DVDs (season 1-6) and buy the last two and hope he forgets he leant them me. I needed to know how season eight's final episode was going to end. It's driving me mad and I've only just started season two. I googled it. In all honesty, I'm so glad it's ending this way because if it was going to end the way I thought it was going to, I'd be heartbroken. I can't have that. But it's all so well thought out. Kudos writers of house, kudos.

Theme: House I'm after the house box set  All eight seasons. I've had a general shop around and it's about £70-£130. After getting more and more down hearted I looked on eBay for a final shot. It's selling for £1.20. I was so damn excited I bidded before I even checked the region of the DVDS. If any fucker dares bids I will come to there house and chop of there hands. So then they can only look at the DVDS. They won't be able to open the case and put them in the player. I'm so hooked on house I can't even get over it. Why only now have I really say down and watched it? The bidding ends in three days. I'm going to be full of anxiety until then. Joy. I think ill buy a scraper so you can scrape me off the ceiling every now and again. "Wake up & smell the Vicodin"

Theme: Come Again? I was at work today and we were talking about criminals and how the death penalty should come back, which I agree with. Then we moved onto paedophiles  Now there are paedophiles in all cultures and walks of life. But this one women, this one dumb, uneducated piece of shit was adamant it was "the homos" WELL SQUEEZE ME. I didn't realise liking someone of the same sex also meant you liked them of a younger generation...To be specific on what she said, she said "You don't really know what all these homos do these days". Well I know, and I live just like every other human. Everyone who talks to me (especially Shaun) knows I hate kids. Why on earth would I be touching them if I squirm being in the same room as them? I'd be wrong on saying there are no paedophiles in the gay community. Of course there is. It's just not all of us. It's not easy being in the LGBT community. If I had a pill to be straight, I'd take it. I'd g

Theme: Vertical Climb I went on a new machine at the gym today, i had no idea how to use it so i had to grab an instructor to show me what to do. After having a chinwag with him he told me that it is just like climbing a ladder he said, all i can say to you now Mr.instructor is U MAD? More like hanging on in mid air for dear life. My legs are absolutely killing me. I must have spent more time still and heavy breathing then I did moving. Dying was an understatement. Everything hurt, and still does hurt. This was all only after a minute. So on Friday when I'm off out with Shaun I'm going to buy me some gloves to protect my hands, and then I'm going to dive into this machine head on. One shall not be broken!

Theme: BIRTHDAY GURL!   It's my 20th birthday today! I am one day older. No longer a teenager. It's only 12:32 so obviously I haven't opened present's yet, but I mainly know what I have anyway, simply because you can't wrap up a tattoo. My birthday has started pretty well, I'm sat up watching family guy talking to my best friend who is conspiring against me for a birthday cake. The plan for today is get up, go gym, visit my grandma then spend the rest of the day watching house until it's time to go out with the rest of the family. I'm all really excited for the rest of the day. I also want to give my little baby boy, Sonic a mention. As it was his birthday yesterday, two years old. I treated him to a cuddle and some chicken.

Theme: VCH Pain. It's been three days since I had my Clitoral Hood pierced and its going well! Swollen and in a way I just want it to hurry the fuck up and heal as every now and again ill move to fast or something and it will hurt like a bitch. I'm a little concerned on why it hurts but as its so new and it hurt so damn much when getting pierced I think ill give it till its healed and if it still hurts when it's done, then that's when I will need to consider the next cause of action. I don't want to take it out now in case its just still swollen, which it is and therefore sensitive. Otherwise for the most part I don't feel a thing. My tattoo however, is itchy as hell. Which is a good sign as when I put all my cream on it I can feel all the scabs, so that's right on track. Luckily by piercing won't take as long to heal (three weeks) where as my Christina tool three months. Ha.

Theme: Well there, Mr.Hirsch! I. can't. even. breathe. I've been sending Emile Hirsch tweet's literally everyday. I'm not even sending creepy one's. Just one's that would at least make me seem somewhat normal. Today he posted a video of him and his friend, and by this point I was like "fuck this, no matter what I post he will never acknowledge my existence." So after a girl commented on the video with "ovaries gone" I thought I'd just go all out and fangirl. I replied with " I second that, my ovaries have also exploded." He liked it. Emile Hirsch liked what I said. He knows of my existence. Better yet, he knows that my ovaries exploded. For him. Oh my god. I just can't stop  squealing. Emile, you precious, precious human being.

Theme: Early Birthday Present To Myself! I went into Devils Own again today to see the female piercer. If anyone thinks I'm getting any more down there they are so, so wrong. This piercing hurt so damn badly. So much more then my Christina piercing and that's a complicated piercing to do! I got the verticle clitoral hood (VCH). It's so damn cute though. When I got it done, and the needle went through, I was talking then all of a sudden I screamed. It bled so damn much. It didn't stop bleeding until I went bed. I bled all over the piercers chair. I'm sorry 'Devils Own'. I highly recommend going here for body modification. This piercing only cost me £45 including the spray for it! Hopefully I won't have as many problems with it as I did my Christina.