Ramblings Of A Rambler

Theme: New Years Eve I have never celebrated new years, it doesn't mean anything to me. I don't have any new years resolutions. I mean, it would be loose weight, but that's going to happen weather I like it or not. Haha.

Theme: Work Usually I'd be working right now. It's weird having christmas and new years off. I've never worked christmas there and I'd hate too. New years doesn't bother me as I'm usually in bed early anyway, so I may as well work it. I feel sorry for the people that have to work it though, as I have a choice. LOL, JK.

Theme:  Recovery It's weird how quick christmas is over. I can't wait for christmas next year. At least then I won't be recovering from a major operation. Recovery is going well though, no issues as of yet.

Theme:  Nothingness Everyone's off from work so we're just relaxing whilst were all off, watching TV, sleeping ect. It's weird having my dad home so much. I prefer it when he's at work.

Theme: Kindle My kindle arrived today! I'm all excited, I've brought like ten book's already. I'm currently reading "go ask alice" which is a book I have wanted to read since I was sixteen but was unsure of buying it. I'm going to go for a walk around the block, read and play xbox. That's my plan for today.

Theme:  OUCH! I changed my cartilage piercing's today. Granted I changed them way to early so there was lots of blood, lots of pain and lots of bad language. But I've managed to put them all in successfully. My ear is all glittery and cute.

Theme:  Christmas It's CHRISTMAS! Yay. Had a really loverly day with the family today. Got lot's of loverly presents. Many disney pandora charms which are absolutely stunning, new socks, smellies. The usual. It was weird not opening chocolate or pj's. When it came to christmas dinner my parents sat at the table whilst I went upstairs and played on my xbox for a bit. How I'd love a bit of turkey. 

Theme:  Christmas Eve Been a basic day today. Just sat around and played xbox. I'm going to bed pretty early tonight so christmas come's sooner. What a child's way of thinking.

Theme:  Steves Went to Steve's house today to exchange gifts. It was loverly to see her. I met her hamster, Rocket, for the first time. I want him. She brought me some loverly presents. All disney related. Bless her. Thank's homo.

Theme: Fuck, stop! I went to have more piercing's done today at Devils Own. Fuck me. I hate cartilage piercings. It hurt so damn bad. I had eight of them done. It's going to look so cute once I get the jewellery I want in. But seriously. I think having my cartilage pierced is the most painful as the pain is just constantly there for a long time whilst it's healing. Then you have that pain where you can't sleep on that ear. I've had both ear's done. Tonight will be fun.

Theme: Better Having a much better today then I was yesterday. Yesterday was defiantly my difficult day. I resented milkshake. I still do. I just want a different texture in my fucking mouth.

Theme: One Week It's been a week since my operation. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of the amount of liquid I have to drink, and the frequency I have to drink it. It's even worse in the morning. Getting up at half six for a milkshake is not welcomed here. I also experienced what it's like to drink more than I should today. Which really is a good thing, so then I know what it feel's like when I've had enough. It feel's like your having a mini heart attack. Like your going to die. But it's not overly painful. It come's and goes. It's so weird. The pain you get isn't in your stomach like some people would think. It's actually in your breast bone. The best way I can describe it, is being punched in the chest.

Theme:  Shitting Out A Simpson My shit is yellow and liquidy from all the liquids I'm ingesting. It also come's out without warning. You literally shart yourself.

Theme:  Deep Vein Thrombosis I've been having some massive pains in my right leg. It hurt's to move. I contacted one of the nurses at the hospital I stayed at and she organised me an appointment to have a scan. She think's it's a trapped nerve rather then DVT but because it's a private hospital, they make a fuss over you. I went for my scan, which came back clear. I knew it would as I have no symptoms of DVT. Which just mean's one thing. It's a trapped nerve. Death to the nerve.

Theme: Walkies Been going for walks around the block with my mum. It's a killer because I'm just so tired. I won't lie, I'd love some food. I also changed my bandages today. The stitches look really well. It's dissolvable stitches and some have dissolved already which is quiet nice. I don't think it will scar to badly at all. I just can't wait until next week where I don't have to take as many medications as I do now. I'm on six different pills three time's a day. it's so tedious. 

Theme:  Taking It Easy I'm just taking it easy today. Replying to everyone's messages and chilling out on the sofa. I'm still so tired from everything so there isn't a lot I can do.

Theme:  Home Time I get discharged today. Oh hell yes. I get to be in my own bed, amongst my own thing's and do my own stuff in peace. Discharge at NHS takes hours, Discharged at my place? 10 minuets. Score.

Theme: Blur Today has been a bit of a blur. I'm getting lots of messages on my phone. None of which I have replied to. The energy is completely zapped out of me. I'm too tired to even silently judge people on Jeremy Kyle. I forgot to mention that yesterday when my mum came back after my surgery she brought me a 'Bay Max' from 'Big Hero Six' teddy bear. He's loverly and soft. I love him because he reminds me of me. When I was about to go into surgery I only hugged my mum goodbye and when I woke up, I only hugged my mum. My mum told my dad to give me a hug, but even whilst I was drugged up I still moved away. That's not a good sign. But let's keep thing's positive. I love you lot's mum and thank you.

Theme:  Out Of Surgery I'm out of surgery (obviously this is a back date) I feel pretty horrendous. I'm just vomiting phlegm everywhere. Apparently I was swearing at the nurses too. There's only so many time's you can ask me my name and date of birth. I don't care who I am. Just gimmie drugs.

Theme:  Excited I'm not nervous for tomorrow, which is my surgery date. I'm more agitated. I just want it to be here already. I'm excited. I want it over and done with so I can start my new life damn it.

Theme: Last Shift! How weird it feel's for this to be my last shift. I'm glad and excited. I bet it will be a busy night knowing me. The patient's don't know, and I don't want them too. So I'm just going to slip away into the distance until next year. Woot.

Theme: One More One more night left and then I'm free for a whole month. So excited. I wonder if the patient's will realise I'm not there? All my favourite patient's aren't there anymore so I guess I don't really care.

Theme:  Glad To Be Working!?! I'm glad to be working, at least I'm doing something to pass the time. However, if anyone does anything wrong, staff wise, I'll go insane. I'm not being dragged into other people's bullshittery. When I'm off on the sick, I don't want to hear  anything  about this place.

Theme: Surgery. This Week I can't believe I'll be having surgery this week. It all feel's so surreal. I hope it doesn't hurt much. I'm still so excited. My life is going to change, and for the better.

Theme: Backdating Fuck knows what occurred on this day. But, can't miss a day. I still have to blog every day. It's been nearly four years since I started this blog. I don't know why I carry on, only one person read's it, Mark (thank you Mark). But I guess I don't do it for anyone else. Eurgh, could you image if blogspot ever shut down? That's four year's of my life lost.

Theme: Packing Done all my packing for hospital. So excited. Gah.

Theme: Working I'm being a lazy bitch at work knowing I'm going to gave like a month off soon. I don't care what the patients are up too. Just stfu and get in bed.

Theme: Backdating No idea what I did today. Nothing great is really going to happen until my surgery date now. 

Theme: Pre-Op  I had my pre-op assessment. Boring. Nothing great happened just took my blood's, asked me a ton of nagging questions, weighed me. The usual.

Theme: Pre-Op Assessment  I have my pre-op assessment tomorrow. I'm excited for it, although I had a bit of a blip a moment ago. Nicotine stays detectable in your blood system for 1-3 days. I thought I had my last cigarette on Monday which would still make it detectable. After having a mini flap and frantically looking through my calendar, i'm safe. I won't lie. That shit me up.

Theme: Happy Birthday Happy Birthday to my mum for tomorrow. I love you lots. I hate it when you worry and think that my brothers have forgot your birthday. You mean more to us than that, I love you lots and I couldn't thank you enough for everything you have done for me. ♥