Ramblings Of A Rambler

Theme: Sometime's I can't help myself The hobbit is out on the fourteenth. I'm getting so excited I can't help but make references here there and everywhere. I think I'm going to a midnight showing of it with Steve. I'm trying so hard to resist the urge to dress up. If I did dress up I'd go as Gandalf. Not for any particular reason I just think it would be such a fun character to dress up as. Anyway, out of excitement today I ended up sending this to my mum:

Theme: Lack of existence Went to go to my interview today. I went many hours earlier to find the place. The place is mia, it was literally missing in action. I went up and down this damn street for at least two hours. I asked at least five people. I even popped into the information centre to get directions but the place they put in was on the map but wasn't there like in real life?! I even called the place up and they directed me to another building which also conveniently didn't exist. On the plus I found out I wasn't a real interview. The company had dressed it up as if it were an interview and in fact all I was doing what registering with them so I haven't missed any job opportunities. I've just been majourly pissed about.

Theme: You know your a little surprised when... You receive job rejections from places you can't even remember applying for! Apparently I applied at a bus company working I head office. So obviously I wasn't to distraught I didn't get the job as I can't remember applying for them! On the plus I do have a job interview tomorrow for working in customer service. I've applied to work for the company millions of times from various websites so I think they are just getting sick of seeing my name pop up and just giving me the interview to shut me the hell up. Truth is, I apply for so many jobs a day I forget I've applied for them already so even if I don't get the job they are still going to see me pop up because ill keep forgetting I've already applied, haha. It would be a real plus because the job is in town and it would just be perfect if it comes to moving out because it will be easy to catch a bus!

Theme: Work Had work as usual. Nothing's happening. I'm enjoying it more now. No idea why it's took me like three years to like it but the time goes really fast when I'm there. Went to go see my grandma after work and my family think she's got the early signs of dementia. But we've been saying that for the past two years. Personally I don't know. I just don't know.

Theme: bleurgh. Not been doing much today other than applying for jobs and watching crap in tv. My mum and dad usually work till fairly late on a Monday so I'm on my own for a long period of time. Don't get me wrong I can entertain myself, and I'm happy in my own company accept that I need something to break up my own company otherwise ill drive myself mad!

Theme: Children! Although I completely and utterly hate kids, it doesn't mean I don't think about them! My favourite thing when it come's to thinking about them is names. I really like unisex names and unusual names. If I ever do end up having kids then I'd really hope out for a girl. So I can do all the mother daughter thing's like shopping and such. Anyway, if I was to have kids the possible names would be: Boys:            Girls: Jessie           Ginger                     Cassie                     Cori/Cory                     Athena                     Alesana I couldn't imagine giving my kid's skanky name's such as "destiny". No, just no. Granted my names are unique and I know a lot of people would flat out hate them, but hey hoe. Fuck them! If I had two twin girls I'd want to name them 'Ginger' and 'Bea'. I know the name 'Bea' is short for 'Beatrice' but I'd completely for

Theme: Grrr. I hate my dad. I mean really, really hate him. I'm not saying it out of anger or frustration. I'm saying it because its simply the truth. He's a prick. I hate it when I know I'm going to be alone with him because I just don't know what to say. I know it's going to be that awkward silence. I know that when I move out I will have as little to do with him as possible. I try to do that at the moment anyway but I can avoid him even more later on in life. He makes me feel so small and just so shit about myself all the time. If I find something that makes me happy such as art, he will put me down for it. He suggested we go see 'the hobbit' for Christmas. But why now? Why after all these years do you want to spend time with me now? He usually spends time with my brothers at Christmas whilst mum gets the house sorted decoration wise, but they can't make it up this year for whatever reason. I remember one year he said to my mum "I love

Theme: Super Hero! I was thinking the other day, if I could have power's would I have? So I figured I would take a look at a list of abilities on this site  and see what would tickle my pickle. There are a lot of power's that I couldn't imagine being any use to me, some powers which would cause a good giggle like appearance alteration and some that would be useful like the classic power, invisibility. After going through the website here are a list of the power's I have chosen. Underwater Breathing Change Time Telescopic vision Teleportation Telepathy Telekenisis Super Speed Spontaneous combustion Shape Shift Ability To Sedate Others Phasing Healing Memory Theft Persuasion Mediumship Lie Detection Invisibility Flight Dream Manipulation Cloning Aura Absorbation Appearance Alteraration If I had a limit myself to five powers, I would have these: Change Time Healing Memory Theft Mediumship Aura Absorption The reason why I have the ch

Theme: Fortune Tellers I'm not really much of a sketpic. But I am when it come's to fortune tellers. A friend of mine came to me yesterday and asked me my opinion on them. My honest opinion is that I'm really unsure. I don't understand how it work's, so I guess that's why I can't put my full belief into them. Let's say for example Tom a fortune teller say's I'm going to meet the person of my dreams in a club and marry her and shit will all be honky doorey. What if, in the future we're meant to meet at a specific place at a specific time. But something goes wrong so we don't end up meeting. What if I change my mind at last minute and decided to stay in? Or what if someone get's to her first? Or is my future so mapped out that even if shit goes wrong, my path will always lead to that person? Like a sat nav, when you refuse to listen to what it's saying but find's a different direction anyway but still lead's to the same

Theme: Nothingness. It's boring not having a job, you find yourself doing the same thing everyday. It get's very depressing being in such a routine. I couldn't imagine myself being out of a job for more than a year. However, I think it's going that way. I certainly won't get anything now until after Christmas because all the Christmas temporary jobs have gone and I'm left with nothing. I keep checking the NHS site though. I really want to get into the NHS. Even if it's just a cleaner. In fact  I want to get into anywhere even if it's just a cleaner. I was thinking the other day if I did get into the NHS as a health care assistant, would I study to be a nurse? I couldn't imagine myself doing three more years of coursework. But I think, if it got me to where I wanted to be, mental health nursing, then I'd do it. There's not really any psychiatric hospitals where I live, however, I would more than happily be a mental health nurse in a prison.

Theme: Easy Money! The paedophile phone calls text's we're still going on through the night right till nine this morning. The last phone call I got was probably the most amusing. The possible 'employer' asked me how old I was, I said fourteen (because he blocked his number) and then I was offered £200 to suck him off, funnily enough my mum was sat right next to me and she was more than happy to talk to him and give him what for. I've now removed the ad. What have I learned from this experience? There are some sick people out there.

Theme: The Crushing Of The Innocent I'm getting so desperate for a job I have even applied as a slaughter operative, where I will kill and skin animals. That pretty much goes against everything that I think about. But I'm desperate, so it's got to be done. It's another job opportunity I can't let flow by me. Anyway, I decided to add another gumtree advertisement up, I had a little bit of luck last time but the job's just weren't suitable, yet, employer's did find me. However, this time, I wasn't too lucky. I got seven calls, all blocked. They wanted, what they called a 'massage'. Although, I did get this one call from this guy wanting someone to talk to about his idea's, thoughts and feelings, but he didn't want a counsellor. I suggested he just make friend's online and he was like no, I don't want friend's. That conversation ended in me calling him a paedophile and him telling me it's all my fault. I also got fou

Theme: Zombie Convention! I won't post photographs from today, as I am trying to keep this blog as anonymous as possible. I don't even think this has my name written anywhere. Anyway, I had an awesome day, I can't answer for Steve, but I loved it. However, I did expect there would be more there and for that, I think the ticket's where a little expensive. There were some really good costume's there to be fair for example, look at the guy on the left. How long must that have taken him? People came up to me and took my photo, I found it weird as I've never had anyone want to take a photo of me before.We did meet some really nice people, but there were also some people there that you just wan't to get away from because they are the stalker kind. But everyone was nice and friendly and down for a good chatting. There was a few little shops there and Steve brought a 'walking dead' game and a t-shirt from there, and me being the tight arse only brought a

Theme: Steve, where you going? Steve! No, stawp! Me and Steve went to go see the new twilight movie today and yeah, it was pretty damn awful. However, I am glad I went to see the last one, it was just a disappointment. It was only day two of the showing so it was pretty packed. We went to see it because we came home from the zombie convention early. Anyway, we decided to go through the gap in the fence to get there, as it's a short way round and it make's us feel like bad asses  It was pretty damn muddy down there. I knew I was going to slip, because I have the worst luck. But Steve did actually brave it, and good on her. Unfortunetly, she didn't make it to the bottom without slipping. So yeah, it was pretty much all down hill for her. She got mud absolutely everywhere. Yes, I did have the cheek to ask her to come half way up the hill again to help me down. Ha. But yes, I picked on her all night for it. I did make sure she was okay before I laughed like. My time will com

Theme: it's time! Me and Shaun are off to the zombie convention/festival tomorrow. I'm ecstatic. Everything is sorted and ready. I've been so excited that last week I even choose what under I'm wearing, even though no one see's them. After the convention ends at 12, Shaun will be coming back to my house to sleep, where we have a night full of pizza and energy drinks! No doubt we will end up on some site pissing random people off! May the god/dess have mercy on omegles soul.

Theme: Job Centre scum! I feel pretty embarrassed that I have to sign on at the job centre  I try not to talk about it but after today just eurgh. I think some of the advisor's automatically see you as scum. No matter who you are or what you do, you will always be scum in there eyes. There's nothing I could have done right today and I just want to wipe a clean slate and forget about it. Other than the job centre I've done fuck all today!

Theme: Time, don't speed up or anything Nothing's been happening, everything's just going really slow and I'm becoming a little lazy with my blogging so on Monday I'm going to make a point of doing it everyday for sure so I don't have to backdate. I like blogging though. It's like I'm emptying my mind of all these little thoughts. Especially when good things happen because if I write it all down in detail I can look back and remember things I may have forgot. I never thought I would have kept up with this blog for this long. It will be nearly a year since I've started it and I'm proud of myself.

Theme: Death Of A Hedgehog. I just watched the Simpson's episode where there pet dog was close to dying. It got me thinking about my beautiful, prickly, little friend. On the 3rd of March 2013, two years of his life will have passed. It got me thinking about how I would cope if he did die, and where would he go, burial wise? If I buried him, I'd obviously bury him in the garden. But the issue with that is the foxes. I think I'd be traumatised waking up and seeing him sprawled across the lawn. This make's me seem so heartless writing about all this, but trust me when I say, I'm in tears. The second option would be to leave him at the vets and get the vet's to deal with him. But that seem's so cold. I'd also have to know what exactly they would be doing with him. I think if he was used for science I could live comfortably with that, because although he isn't here any more  he's helping someone or something in a special way. It sound's weird

Theme: Time, where you going? Stawp! Time has just completely gone by today. I woke up at 8:30 got a shower and it was 1:00 by the time I was fully done and finished faffing about! I'm in a good mood, and just so damn excited for Saturday. The only thing that's pissing me off is 02. I have only just joined them and half my text's don't send to people all the time. It's jarring. Especially when I'm in the middle of a good ass conversation. I love my phone, and I'm highly addicted to the apps. I brought a sex game on it for the shits and giggles but instead it turned out it was an app that was just asking me question's about STD'S...yeah, real sexy that. My knowledge is still good though, I scored 90% correct!

Theme: Matching Underwear! Went shopping again today. Well actually, I went to return an item and I got my money back in voucher form so I figured I might as well spend it there and then. There's nothing I love more than matching underwear. If I'm not matching, I don't feel...right? Even better that I found a cute underwear set in my favourite colour, purple . Then that's it really, came home and did usual Sunday thing's.

Theme: Aunt Irma, Part 2. Still dying. Whoever invented water bottles get's a hug from me. I haven't really done much today though, just sat around and shopped for shit I could actually never afford. I'm really looking forward to next Saturday, zombie day. Seven more days. 

Theme: Aunt Irma Aunt Irma is knocking on my door again. I'm kind of greatful it's now though, so I don't have to take her to the zombie convention with me. It's made me feel pretty ill though. I've basically ate shit all day and watched films. I was watching Glee this morning and I actually cried over it. Good lord help me. Then I watched Killer Joe, with my future husband in, so I felt a little better. Other than that I haven't done much today, just sat around in my pj's. If I could gif how I feel, I think this sum's it up:

Theme: Shopping! I went Christmas shopping with my mum today! We went all around fosse park and there was practically nothing in the store's. We we're hoping to get everything done today. But it look's like we're going to have to get everything off the internet instead. We popped into Asda though and we went down the little toy/gadget area where they had these egg time's. I set about seven of them to go off all at once. I'm such an annoying cunt I love it. Whilst we we're at Asda my mum brought me the cutest scarf and hat set (on the left). I convinced her to let me have it now. It's so damn comfy I've been wearing it all day. It look's so much cuter then it does in the picture, granted. I also love thick scarfs. She brought me this big purple one once and it's bloody beautiful. This is why I love winter, because I can bring out the winter accessories  Anyway, After doing some failed shopping me and my mum went to get something to eat at t

Theme: Dvd Collection I have just ordered every movie Emile Hirsch has been in. I can't wait for all of them to come, I'm so excited. The only issue is I have to put them away for christmas. Boo! Another gay thing is that there are movie's that he's been in that are not yet out on DVD. So here's my little mental note for the future: -Twice Born -Lone Survivor -The Motel Life -Savages

Theme: Mitt Romney, the only way you’ll see the White House now is if you sign up for a tour. Although I'm not American, or even remotely interested in politics but towards the end of the election I actually became interested in it. I'm actually glad Obama had won. He's certainly the better person. If it's one thing I like about him, is that he is a real, real person. It's just the way he's down to earth. It's just nice to be apart of history y'know, so I can say I was around to see it. Like, I can't even count the amount of 'end of the world's' I've survived. Anyway, it didn't even take an hour for the picture jokes to be surfacing on tumblr. So yes, I have to share them with you!

Theme: Comfort food, you're doing it all wrong! I was just curious about what people would class as comfort food, after doing some research I came across this website and it listed these items as comfort food: Apple Pie Baked Beans Banana Pudding Beef Stew Brisket Pot Roast Chicken & Dumplings Chicken Pot Pie Chicken Soup Chili Chocolate Chip Cookies Corn on the Cob Fried Chicken Gelatin Green Bean Casserole Hot Dogs Ice Cream Macaroni & Cheese Mashed Potatoes Meatloaf Potato Salad Pumpkin Pie Shepherd's Pie Spaghetti Tomato Soup Tuna Casserole Girl, you got it all wrong! There are only two items on there that I can agree with and that's the cookies and ice cream. The reason someone would be eating comfort food is because they want comforting. Cooking for an hour over a hot stove is not comforting. Sitting in your pj's and drinking a pint of milkshake is comforting. It's all well and good if you have someone cooking it for y

Theme: That feeling you get during your period when it feels like your uterus has been scraped out with a rusty spoon. I feel so emotionally screwed up tonight. Aunt Irma has to be around the corner with how crap I am feeling. Someone mentioned the movie 'Marley & Me' to me today, they said nothing about it and I nearly burst out in tears. To be fair, it was a sad movie. But Christ, she only named it. It just didn't help the conversation I had with my mum. She suggested that I went onto a dating site. I would have given my sofa my credit card's pin code if it promised to open up and swallow me whole. Then she went on to saying why I struggle to make friend's. So basically what she's saying is, it that I'm uncool. Cheers. I'm so embarrassed that people know I have little friend's. I even hate writing this, but this is how my day went and I basically have to write this otherwise I'd just be flat out lying about what I did today. I also pro

Theme: A day full of the Hirsch, is a day well spent. I finally found a decent version of 'Killer Joe' online. It was bloody amazing. I really wasn't expecting it to be as good as it was. Juno Temple played such a brilliant part and she was so damn cute in it too. I'm chuffed to bit's I've pre-ordered it. It should be here this month actually. When Emile had his head caved in with a beans can it literally felt like a bear was tearing my heart out. He just died slowly and I wanted to scoop him up and love him and make him better in the way a fan-girl does. He got beaten up a lot actually, so that was a recurring feeling. But everyone played such a brilliant part. Kudos to you all. Anyway, someone also informed me that there was some new pictures and a new video of Emile swimming about which they gave me a link to. So I'm now also up to date with him too! I haven't heard from him in about a month so it's been killing me. But he's still cute,

Theme: John Green John Green is an immense writer. He wrote "The fault in our stars" which I read not long ago. It's very rare for a book to have an emotional impact on me, but this one did. With each page I kind of felt my heart string's being yanked out of me. So I had to buy every book John Green had ever written. If a book is really good, I have to get it in hardback, as hardback is so much better then paperback. Brilliantly enough I found the signed book set on Amazon for like £30. It came today. It's being put away for Christmas  I was so tempted to run upstairs with it and hide away and pretend it never came and that I've just been conned. But the signature is on each book and it's been like embedded into each book. There so beautiful. I could have cried. I can't wait to sit and read the whole set. Even the box it came in is so beautiful. “I wanted so badly to lie down next to her on the couch, to wrap my arms around her and sleep. Not f

Theme: Ex I was looking through photo's of my ex today on her tumblr, I know this all sounds creepy. I was just going through my blocked list and I saw her there. So I thought what's the harm in checking it out? There was lot's of harm. I can't un-see some of the shit she's posted. The pictures, I've seen the poor girl naked more time's than I've seen her clothed. That's generally not a good sign. It's a sorrowful sight really. I'm not saying she's unattractive, I'm just saying she's a slut, with very little self-respect. Or maybe that's me just being old-fashioned? I know this whole blog sound's like I miss her and I'm just bitter about the break up, but I'm really not. She goes through girlfriend's like I go through Emile Hirsch pictures. I couldn't even try to name all the relationship's she's been in, and I know for a fact, she couldn't either. She's the sort of person you look at a

Theme: Work I've applied for a ridiculous amount of jobs now. 266 jobs to be exact. I've only had two interviews. I just thought whilst I'm waiting for episode three of 'the walking dead' to buffer I may as well list them below. There's something out there for me. Even if it involved a mop and a sweeping brush. Anyway, I haven't done much today, it's a Sunday, what can you do? I'm not as depressed this Sunday though. Usually my mood is horrendous on a Sunday. All I've done today was sit around watching crappy 90's films and eat chocolate  I'm also practising wearing my contacts. They hurt a little I just hope I can wear them for the 17th, they look to awesome to not be warn! Admin x90 Admin Assistant x33 Audio Typist x4 Bar Assistant x2 Book Keeper x1 Carer x37 Call Taker x3 Cleaner x5 Customer Services x5 Contact Worker x1 Childcare Worker x3 Information Assistant x1 Kitchen Assistant x4 kitchen Porter x1 Mail Sorti

Theme: Family Time! Had the family come round to day for a meal, Chinese to be exact. It was nice having everyone together, it's a rare occasion now everyone is working. My brother's just put an offer in for this house. That's all that's new really. It's just nice to have everyone all together under the same roof. I don't think we will be able to do that again until after Christmas. 

Theme: A Child Is Born! I have just got my new baby, my Iphone 5. It's bloody brilliant. It's such a step up from my crappy HTC. It's £600 well spent. I've already put my 'Into The Wild' phone case on it. I was a little pissy though as post usually comes at 11:30 so I was stood by the door waiting and he didn't come. So I was like 'Fuck you, snail mail' and did my ironing in a strop. However, halfway through my ironing I heard a tap at the door. I have never ran so damn fast. He handed me the parcel and I was so damn happy and excitable I think I actually scared him a little. It's just so fast and awesome and owft. It's such a plus that I can now blog anywhere I am and just doing laptop shit, but on my phone!

Theme: Want want want, can't cope, overload! I just seen this on ebay ( click here ) I think my mum would literally gut me if I brought it. Oh my god. Oh ebay, your sexy and you know it. I have to say, I can't really get it, as I have read the interview countless of time's on the internet, so it would be a waste of money. I have space for two more landscape poster's of his and lots of room for portrait ones, so I know I would prefer a poster. Especially of him in Alpha dog. Owft, to have his body smeared all over my bedroom would be a dream.

Theme: Death comes to us all... I woke up this morning on Steve's sofa. Looking like shit, feeling hungover *even though I don't drink* and just generally falling about the place. Now, if you don't look like shit or feel like shit, then you've not had a good night out. So this officially proves that yesterday was a great success.  It was so much bloody fun I couldn't thank her enough. The only bad thing about this morning was when my mum picked me up and we went shopping and job center, and I just wanted to crawl back into bed and sleep for a long, long time. Just sixteen more days now and then it's zombie day! I'm going to have to get me some bike shorts or some shit as the chub rub on me, fucking hell. I've been crawling my way round everywhere today because of it! It canes. At least when I went shopping I got some family member's christmas present's and cards. I absolutely hate card shopping. It drives me mad. I got both sister in law