Ramblings Of A Rambler

Theme: Rejected I've been rejected for the gastric band because my BMI is to high. The £5k surgery that I saved up for I can no longer have, to top it, I've been informed I'll be dead before I'm forty. I'm distraught. The surgery that I've been suggested to have is £10k. £10 fucking k. I don't have that kind of money. I think we're gonna try and frantically try and get the money together, but I don't see it happening. My mum had a go at me when I had a panic attack. I don't want to be here. I ruin everything.

Theme: Nerves I'm so nervous. Today I find out if j have my gastric band or not. My mums booked a late appointment. Typical. 7 tonight is when I go. Fuck me man. Cross fingers, toes, limbs, hair strands. Anything cross able, cross it.

Theme: Work Bleurgh. Work tonight. Can't be bothered. I've had six days of so I'm anxious about going. I guess it's the thought of not knowing what I'm walking into. Do we have more patients? Do we have less? Has the place burned down? Who knows.

Theme: Day Out With Mum Went shopping up town with mum today. Got our eyebrows done and did a few Christmas card shopping. Then I took her out for lunch at a place called "the grove" it was a nice day out but has been raining all day. When we got back from lunch we just fell asleep on the sofa till late.

Theme: Paranormal Activity Went to see paranormal activity today with Steve. It was pretty good. Very funny with its one liners. We also went to TGI Fridays for the first time. I had one drink and felt tipsy on it. I haven't drank in so long and didn't eat that day. But still. Damn light weight. It was really pretty though. Had popping candy all round the top. Oh Steve dyed her hair. Doesn't it look lovely? She's going to America tomorrow. Lucky bitch.

Theme: Next year Right, I'll see you all in about a year or two. I've just brought a couple of Lego Xbox games. There so addictive. I haven't came out of my room all day and when I have kids been for food which I hid in my pocket and scurried of upstairs.

Theme: Fresh Start This year has been kind of rubbishy. I've been waiting for the new year for well, a year now. I just want a fresh start. I'm looking forward to it all.

Theme: Noseyness Whoops, I got a little nosey and went snooping in my mums room. I came across all the pandora beads she's got me for christmas. Great success is all I can say. I'm looking forward to filling my band up, it's going to look so damn cute.

Theme: Cute! Been doing my holiday scrapbook. It looks so damn cute. I can't wait to make another one for next years holiday with Steve. I love focusing my energy onto thing's like that. I can't wait for my holiday next year already.

Theme: Gahh. I have so much blogging to catch up with. I was planning on doing it today after I changed my background to a halloween theme. Although my blog didn't like it and completely screwed up. So I spent an hour trying to fix it. Precious blogging time wasted man. Hopefully I will get some in tonight. Got lots of news to catch up especially as yesterday was my first day back in work. Got work again tonight, so until tonight when I can actually catch up, goodnight everyone!

Theme: Christmas Shopping Done some Christmas shopping today. Got Steve all of her christmas presents which I'm impressed with. Done some of Sarah's too. Wrapped them today as well. I love doing everything early and getting thing's completed.

Theme: Gaah I wish it was my operation date already. It feels so far away. I just want it to hurry up. I'm so excited for it.

Theme: Nothing Not doing a lot today. Just having a chill day. Staying in bed, playing xbox. Still ill so I don't really feel up to doing much anyway. I've now joined a facebook group that supports people who have had or are having gastric sleeves. It's pretty informative and useful.

Theme: Backdating Who the hell knows. Who the hell, knows.

Theme: Day Off Thank god it's my day off. I'm still feeling pretty rough from yesterday so I'm just dossing in bed playing lord of the rings on xbox.

Theme: Eh I have no idea what I did today. Just sat there I think with nothing to do.

Theme: Scrapbook Started some of my scrap book from my holiday today. I love arty projects that I can throw myself into. Keeping my hands busy tend's to help my mental health because I just throw my full concentration onto it. It's gonna look so cute when it's done.

Theme:  Adjusting I'm so tired. Fuck you jet lag. I don't intend on moving much today. In fact, I'm just going to stay in bed like:

Theme: Noo! Home time. Our holiday feel's so short now we are going home. I hate it. Leave me here to fend for myself, I don't care. Let me move here and then I can become a disney princess for real. I don't want to go home where I have to go back to the same old same old. It's too magical here. I was so born in the wrong place. I'm meant to be an American damn it. Most of my bucket list is made up of thing's to do in America.

Theme: Typhoon Lagoon Another water park. Still ill. This waterpark has sand. I hate sand it gets all in your crack and because of my weight walking hurts when you've only got a swimming costume on. I pretty much did the same as the other water park. Sunbathed and went on lazy river. Although this time I took my foot off cut my toe. I swore. Whilst there was lost of kids around. I'm such a diseased mong. Someone get me some medication and a milkshake.

Theme:  Sea World I loved it at sea world today. It's amazing what they have trained there animals to do. I hope they treat them right. Oh wait, I just saw this . Well that's pretty horrific.

Theme: Disney World - Night Disney World at night is a billion times more magical then it is in the day, with the fantastic fireworks, electric parade, Tinkerbell flying from the castle (yes I saw that). Tonight was a real emotional night. I'm sad it's all over soon. I can't wait to come back next year. What a brilliant memory this has all made.

Theme: The boring side of Disney... Welcome to Epcot. It was pretty horrendous. It's just mainly all food. I don't get the reason for it's existence to be honest. I've begged Steve already to make sure we don't go there next year. I'm too young for old people thing's. Haha.

Theme:  Aquatica  Goddamn it! Went to see a water park today and I have a really dodgey ear and some sort of cold so I can't really go in the water that much. I was too ill to go on any rides so the most I did was go on the lazy river where you sit on a rubber ring and that's it. I'd like to go back when I'm well then I get the full more better experience of it all. It was pretty though. I was just too ill it made me arsey.

Theme:  Halloween Horror Night! The night I had been waiting for finally arrived. My parents have decided not to go with me because they're scared. Ha, ha. I didn't mind wondering around on my own. I went into the first horror house which was a clown one. I won't lie, I was fucking terrified. Genuinely shitting it. I carried on though! When I went to my second house I met someone in the fast track queue called Mandy. Let me cut this story short. She's a middle aged fruit loop that enjoys stealing (which she did whilst with me), squeezing random people's bums and has a personality disorder. So yeah, I was at work on my holiday. But she knew the park so I went with her, and with here I completed all the houses before my parent's wanted to meet me back at the gates. We swapped emails to stay in contact. She was weird, but I liked her. Anyway, in the street's they had clowns walking around with chainsaws. They would come up to you, and if you screamed or ra

Theme:  Universal Studios Probably my favourite park. I think Universal is more aimed at adults. I went on the Harry Potter train and brought some chocolate frogs. They put so much detail into the thing's there it's amazing. I had a krusty burger at Simpson land. Oh, they also have a lot of simulators there. Tends out I prefer the simulators to actual roller coasters! I think it's because there's so much graphics involved and it feel's so real. I brought the fast track ticket's for my horror night as well. Not doing none of that queuing shit. When we finished at Universal they had a show on at night called the 'blue man show'. It was hilarious, literally put tears in my eyes. it's hard to explain the show it was just so odd.

Theme:  Animal Kingdom Animal Kingdom was pretty awesome. We fast tracked most of the rides so we finished thing's much quicker then what we thought. Unfortunately I was too fat for some of the bigger rides which sucks big time. It didn't ruin my day though, there's so much to do. We went on like a safari where you could see all the animals just being fed. I never want to go home.

Theme: Hollywood Studios Went to Hollywood Studio's today. Another nice hot day. It wasn't to busy so we just sort of potted around in our own time. I took my mum on her first roller coaster. She's terrified of roller coasters but as it was the Aerosmith one she wanted to go on it. She was completely unaware that it was in the dark and had loops. Haha. Dad, Mum and me also went on a ride called 'zone of terror'. Where you are in an elevator and you keep crashing up and down and then you can see out. It's very fast. I kept coming out of my seat at the same time I was frantically looking for my seat belt that clearly wasn't as tight as it could have been. But I loved it.

Theme: Shopping! Went to Florida's shopping mall today. It was like our highcross, but massive. I brought myself a new pandora bracelet to start up a Disney band. Other then that it's been a real chill day. Came back. Went for a swim now I'm waiting to use the bath with my bath bomb. I also brought some stickers today from a crafts store as I'm going to build a scrap book of this holiday when I get back. Get all my photos printed etc.

Theme: Sea World Went to 'Sea World' today. Oh my god it was so good. I went on a roller coaster called "Kraken". It had lots of loops and you went upside down multiple times. I just loved it. I also stroked a sting ray today! Oh my god they are so soft and smooth. I wish I could have picked one up and cuddled it. We also went to multiple shows where we saw killer whales, dolphins and seals preform. It was a relaxing day so we didn't do much after we left the park. The heat is making us all so tired. But I had such a wonderful day!

Theme: Disney Land Oh my god. Oh my god. Oh my god. It's Disney land. So many princess's, so many rides, so many stores. Parades. Shows. Oh my god *cries*. The castle looked fantastic. The parade was so breathtaking my jaw was on the floor the whole time. It was just flawless. It was a moment I will never forget. It was a lot of walking and my feet hurt but so worth it. It's just so damn pretty. I took some damn good photos. It was how I imagined it. But only better. It was just indescribable. I'm going to make a photo album up so I will always have those physical memories when I'm old and riddled with dementia.