Ramblings Of A Rambler

Theme: Oh Dear Lord I went to get my eyebrows done today as I have Richie coming over to stay the night later. I was going to shave *down there* but it’s just become so sore, red and splotchy from excessive shaving that I just couldn’t bring myself to do it. So when I was talking to my beautician I just casually brought it up, next thing I know, she’s waxing down there. I’ve always wanted it done but I always felt to shy or nervous. I needed that impulse to do it. I’m glad I did it. I would never go back to shaving ever again. My skin generally feels so much better. Don’t get me wrong, it hurt. But, I’ve experienced worse pain. For example: having my cartilage pierced hurts way more. Both experiences make me swear, but waxing down there hurts less and it’s just…worth it.

Theme: Yay! My last day shift for like a month. Thank goodness. I can’t stand how boring it all is. At least today I am working with people I get on well with so it should go so much faster. Also, Rich is coming round my house to sleep tomorrow so I have something to look forward too. When I get home I have to continue cleaning my room. It’s his first time round my house, so everything has to be perfect.

Theme: Oh Lord Day shift’s are so boring. I just sit there and pray to god it will all be over soon. It’s so mindless. I am also working with someone really bossy and just I don’t know. She’s a senior and takes on a lot of responsibilities that I usually do at night, so I find that I’m really lost on shift with nothing to do. Boo.

Theme: First Day Shift My first day shift in fucking forever. God help me, I do not want to do this shit. Thank god I only have three night’s a month. All this early start crap is a killer. I don’t believe in early starts.

Theme: Training, Part 2. Just a continuation of yesterday really. Just it’s more physical today. So I just know my leg’s are going to kill me. It’s going to feel like leg day big time. At least I am going to get more pay from doing this bullshit.

Theme: Training, Part 1. I have MAPA training today (management of actual or potential aggression) which is basically self defence and restraining. It’s my favourite training. So despite all the drama that went on for it, I am looking forward to it and could probably do with the update as I forget the thing’s that I don’t use but could need if the situation came up.

Theme: Grrr I have training tomorrow. Which means I have to cancel a really important Dr’s appointment for tomorrow. It’s only a blood test, but it’s an important blood test as it has something to do with contraception. I messaged my boss but my boss stopped replying half way through my messages, it was on whats app so I could see that she saw them. Getting shit sorted or even getting a straight answer is an impossibility.

Theme: Sex I’m at home and stressing about thing’s that perhaps may not be real. Every time thing’s “happen” with my boyfriend, he never wants to have sex with me. We’ve had sex, but we’ve not had sex in a while. I’ve been at his house the whole week. No sex. At all. He says it’s because you it’s too much effort. I’m the one on top all the time. He hasn’t got to do much other then lay there. I want to feel that closeness again. It’s not about the sex, it’s about the emotional closeness. I miss it. I don’t think he want’s to touch me. 

Theme: Home! I’m back home from Richie’s now. I’m pretty tired, so I’ve just unpacked, showered and plan to go to bed after I’ve ate. I miss having him next to me. Boo.

Theme: Happy Birthday! Rich’s birthday today. Happy birthday you cute muffin you. Although you don’t read my blog or even know of it’s existence. Anyway, went to Hamerton zoo with him today. It was beautiful. Really sunny and had a loverly time just being with him.

Theme: Alone Time Over! Rich’s parents come back from there holiday today, so we are no longer alone together. Boo. I’ve had such a wonderful time so far, and I get on with his parent’s really well so it’s not an issue. It’s just nice to have the whole house just me and him.

Theme: Sunny! It’s beautiful today, so me and Rich are just taking a walk down the shop to pick up a few supplies and spend the rest of the day cuddling and watching crap. Having a loverly time to be fair. 

Theme: Day 2! It was loverly to wake up next to him this morning. Just stayed in bed together for ages cuddling. 

Theme: Meet The Parents Rich met my parents today. He was shaking like a leaf bless him. He did really well and my parent’s like him so it’s all good. He got biscuits out for them and everything. How sweet of him. Bless his cotton socks.

Theme: Old Nick Theatre Went on a ghost hunt today with Sarah. Oh my god, it was amazing. It used to be a court house. There was so much activity. We did some glass work on a table and it kept being thrown off the table. It was moving around so fast. One of my favourite places, hands down. After the ghost hunt I got stoned! We were staying in a hotel so it felt like I was on a mini break. Hotel was cute and all country like.

Theme: Exited I am going ghost hunting tomorrow and then I'm going to Rich's. I'm so excited for my next few days off. I'm going to be so busy, but in the best way possible. Yay. It's going to be nice to escape from work and be fully distracted and happy. Best get packing.

Theme: Head Down Just keeping my head down hoping for the weekend to come faster. I have so many thing's planned. I love having thing's to look forward to, I don't feel so dark and depressing.

Theme: Backdating No idea what I did today. Nor do I care. I have so many posts till fill it unfortunately I can’t give every detail of my life.

Theme: Days Off A few days off is always welcomed. Plan to see my muffin, and just be perfectly chilled.

Theme: Senior I applied for senior at work. I kind of just woke up and my instant thought was "yolo" and sent my application off to my manager. I won't get it, but worth a shot. 

Theme: Working Same old, same old. Bored. I just hate it here. I have so little patience, and every action everyone does seem's to be so behavioural and gamy. I just can't be bothered with it anymore. There's people out there that could genuinely do with the help because they wish to get better, but cannot get the help. These people are taking the piss.

Theme: Thank God Thank god I have a boyfriend, when I’m at work I have something to look forward to seeing and being with. He makes me so happy.

Theme: Sunday It’s a sunday. Sunday’s are meant for nothing, so therefore, I shall continue to do nothing on such a day.

Theme: Backdating Whoops. I have so many backdating to do. This whole blogging thing is not going down to well.

Theme: DVD'S Just celebrating payday by buying myself a few, or many thing's. Mainly DVD'S as my case need's re-organising. It's a mess.

Theme: Senior There's a post at work that has gone up advertising for two seniors. I have helped one healthcare assistant write her application because I walked in whilst she was typing it, and it was just awful, so I took over and did it for her. I know I'm not going to get it, so I'm not going to put myself though the pain of bothering to apply.

Theme: Stretching! I stretched my ear today. It is now at 14mm? I can’t get my plug in though, boo. I think it’s because it’s double flared. Luckily enough the stretcher is an elasticated thing so it’s small and not like a massive taper. I’ve never used the elastic ones before but they are much more comfortable and less fiddly to stretch with. I’ll use them in the future. I have no idea how big I want to stretch too. I just want my heart shaped plug back in so I can create the heart shaped hole again.

Theme: Rich’s Went round to Rich’s today. I’ve been really pining to see him so it was loverly to spend the day with him and watch buffy and do other things . His parents are absolutely lovely. Although every time me and Rich are doing other things his parents just appear upstairs and we have to do well other things quietly. Today, his parents went out and we were doing other thing’s and didn’t even hear his parents come back. After we finished I heard my phone alarm go to tell me it was time to catch my train. So I rushed to get changed and with other things hair and sweat we both stumbled into the lounge where his parents were sitting. I bet they heard so much. Oops. 

Theme: Stressing A patient has put in a complaint about me for leaving the building for having a cigarette. Which is what we are instructed to do if we want a smoke break. She said I was rubbing it in her face. Neh bro, sounds like someone’s jealous. The complaint form was written so badly and was just full of bullshit. Luckily enough I told the nurses in a fit of rage or tears (can’t decide which) and they both had a ago at her. 1 - Me 0 - Patient. I’m just struggling to sleep about it so I’ve had to take some PRN (propranolol).

Theme: Work  Now I remember why I called in sick wednesday. Because I cannot be arsed to put up with bullshit. God I hate them all. I had to call the fire service because one patient accidentally locked herself into the computer room, and we don’t have they key for that room because someone went home with it. So we had to get a fireman out to kick the door in. We now have half a door hanging on it’s hinges. It's also the first day of non-smoking on the premises. Patients aren't allowed out but staff are. Let's see how this one goes.